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Quicken Classic for Mac - A Long-time User Review

I’ve used some version of Quicken for 35 years. That puts me in a stodgy demographic that manages money in a certain “this is how I’ve always done it” way. For the uninitiated, Quicken is a personal finance software program that helps manage your checkbook and credit cards, pay your bills, keep to a budget, and track investments. It’s available on Windows and Mac, though there are differences in capabilities between the two. There are companion apps for iPhone and iPad, but they feel like afterthoughts, lacking key functionality of the desktop software. Quicken Classic is sold as an annual subscription across three offerings: Deluxe, Premier, and the recently released Business and Personal edition.

 

Seven years ago, I switched from Quicken Premier for Windows to the less capable Mac version. I’ve written previous blog posts about using Quicken on the Mac: in early 2018 when I switched and follow-on updates in 2019 and 2020. In large part, I was critical of the Mac version of the software, particularly its inability to export investment data.

In the intervening four years since my last post, Quicken has improved in many ways, including the ability to export all its data, including investments, to Quicken for Windows. With this critical functionality in place, I thought it was time to provide an updated and favorable review of the Mac version of Quicken and how I rely on it to manage almost every aspect of my financial life.

Why Quicken

I began my career in public accounting and held a CPA license in Washington state for over thirty years. I spent most of my career as a finance executive with a large publicly traded company, which allowed me direct experience with stock options, restricted stock units, performance shares, deferred compensation plans, and various employee benefit programs that follow that kind of employment. I’ve always tried to be disciplined when it comes to money, and I’m comfortable managing my own finances. With this background and financial situation, I have had many opportunities to evaluate and push the boundaries of Quicken as a personal finance program.

It takes time and expense to maintain a system like Quicken. Many manage their money with simpler apps or just by scanning their accounts online. For me, the effort of a system is worth it. With Quicken, I know what’s going on with my spending and income in relation to expectations every week. Every expense has a monthly budget that fits within a long-range plan. The impact of gyrations in the stock market is personalized with a press of a button. My entire financial history is accessible from Quicken’s search bar. Bills always get paid on time. Checks never bounce. I am rarely surprised at the end of a month, quarter, or year. The peace of mind I get from using Quicken far outweighs the cost.

As a disclaimer, I don’t work for Quicken or have any financial interest in the software or related services. Quicken doesn’t offer a free trial to evaluate, so unbiased reviews from actual users are helpful. I read almost everything I could find before switching to the Mac in 2018. Consider this update an act of paying it forward.

Recent Improvements

Since 2020, there have been dozens of software updates to Quicken. Unlike those early years when I first moved to the Mac, Quicken has now become a pleasure to use, and I consider it a stable, trusted system. Here are a few of the improvements that made the most significant impact on my use:

Error-free Transaction Downloading. The team at Quicken has vastly improved the technology involved in downloading transactions from banks, credit card companies, and brokerage firms. When I first used the Mac version, download errors would pop up continuously. Those days are happily behind me. I'll go weeks and months between download errors, which seem to resolve after a day. My experience is limited to just a few institutions, so your own mileage may vary.

Investment Analysis and Dashboards. The Mac software now provides overall investment allocation between stocks, bonds, and cash, even with mutual funds that own a blend of assets. This update essentially removed the need for me to separately analyze my investments in Excel. In addition, a new dashboard provides a valuable snapshot of investment performance and holdings that rivals and, in some ways, exceeds my brokerage tools. Quicken’s investment section has become quite good.

Auto-generated description: A financial dashboard displays details of a brokerage account with market value, daily gain/loss, holdings, top movers, and asset allocation.

Bill Manager. Quicken has refined its bill tracking and payment capabilities in a big way. The Premier version of Quicken offers free bill paying, but I prefer to send these occasional checks directly from my bank. I use their bill manager service, though, which does some pretty innovative things. First, it can download PDF statements automatically without having to log in to the payee’s website each month and hunt around for the statement. It also automatically schedules the payment based on the due date and records in the payment register. You can make payments directly from Quicken, but my recurring bills are paid automatically, so recording the transaction is all I need. A couple of companies I pay aren’t included in Quicken’s Bill Manager service, but these can be added manually. Second, I get a nice cash balance forecast as these future bill payments are scheduled in the register, preventing possible overdrafts or shortfalls. Bill Manager solves a problem I didn’t know I had, and I’m glad I have it.

Snappy Performance. The software runs faster thanks to performance improvements, particularly with newer Silicon Macs. I use Quicken on an M1 MacBook Air and an M2 Mac Mini. Both perform exceptionally well.

Investment Data Export. Until late last year, Quicken for Mac’s export capabilities excluded investment data. This meant I could not move back to Quicken for Windows or any other competing personal finance apps without losing all my investment history. I hated having to rely on this one particular version of software for all my precious financial data. Luckily, Quicken has now fixed this shortcoming, and Mac users of the software can breathe a collective sigh of relief.

Mac Version Still Lags Windows

Despite the many improvements to the Mac version of Quicken, it still lags behind the Windows version in a few key areas:

Other planning tools like Lifetime Planner, Debt Reduction, and Savings Goals haven’t made it to the Mac yet, but these tools always felt a little gimmicky. I didn’t use them on Windows, so I don’t miss them on Mac.

Quicken Risks and Alternatives

This is an interesting time for legacy software companies like Quicken. I suspect their loyal customers look a lot like me: retired or near retirement, comfortable with desktop apps, lugging along a decade or more of historical data within their app, and resistant to change.

Most new entrants into the personal finance technology space are mobile app-centric. Some don’t even offer desktop apps. Quicken has recently entered this space with its Simplify mobile app and likely believes it represents most of its future growth, which explains why it recently rebranded its desktop software to Quicken Classic.

Intuit, the former parent company of Quicken, recently announced the shutdown of its personal finance app, Mint. Mint is one of the most popular and longest-running app-based finance tools, so its demise sent shockwaves through its customer base. Indeed, this announcement caused me to look more carefully at my use of Quicken and think through what steps I would need to take if the service were similarly shuttered.

I think that the risk is relatively low. Aquiline Capital Partners acquired Quicken in 2021. Typically, private equity firms maintain ownership from five to seven years, so Quicken is in the sweet spot of ownership. Aquiline will be focused on investment and growth vs. the cost-cutting and profit harvesting that comes near the end of the investment horizon as they look to sell their asset. This is good news for Quicken’s current customers.

And yet, I can’t help but feel that users of Quicken software are on borrowed time. Highly regarded mobile apps like Monarch Money and Copilot will continue to improve and introduce more and more capabilities. Eventually, Quicken will be forced to mothball its desktop software as everything moves to the cloud and apps. This is one of the reasons I’m happy that Quicken for Mac’s export function now includes investment data. I might not need this now, but someday I will.

As a safeguard, I create and archive two export files from Quicken every quarter. One is simply the Quicken Transfer File (QFX) you can export from the file menu. I also download a CSV file of all my Quicken transactions by selecting All Transactions from the sidebar and choosing Export Register Transactions to CSV from the File menu. This yields a 60,000-row text file I can access with Excel to search and sort every transaction stored in Quicken for the past 30 years. Between these files, I’m confident I could move my history to a new finance app without too much trouble, even if Quicken stopped working altogether.

Recommendations

Quicken Classic for Mac has a lot going for it in 2024. The software is intuitive, stable, and a pleasure to use. I am pleased with Quicken’s decision to allow a complete export of my data, including investments, should I ever need it. As a Mac user, I have no desire to revert to the more capable Windows version through Parallels or some other clunky virtualization process.

Quicken’s subscription cost is fair for the value I receive, and the frequent updates are delivered almost monthly (as I write this, Quicken released Version 7.5.0, which introduced more new enhancements). Almost all personal finance apps use a subscription business model, and many are more expensive than Quicken. Buying an annual license during Black Friday sales in November can save 30-40% off the regular subscription rate.

For someone with 30 years of history with Quicken, I’m in no mood to switch platforms, given the state of the app today.

And yet, if I were just starting out, would I choose Quicken? I doubt it. From a clean slate, I would probably choose one of the more innovative mobile apps that deliver the power of personal financial management to your pocket or tablet. I plan to test drive a few of these over the coming year to better understand these next-generation tools.

Until then, Quicken for Mac will remain my everyday companion and financial advisor. If you’re a long-time Quicken for Windows user considering switching to the Mac, it’s an excellent time to make the leap.

My Year in Reading

I read 75 books in 2023, my high water mark for the most reading in a year. Books have always been like a warm blanket, and I needed that comfort during a most challenging year.

You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. — James Baldwin

I took on some ambitious books during the year. I read Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, which has long been on my to-be-read pile. I read a new translation of The Odyssey after having last followed the plight of heroic Odysseus some thirty years ago. I am tackling a multi-year reading of Will and Ariel Durant’s epic eleven-volume Story of Civilization. I inherited these books from my Grandmother twenty-five years ago, and I have finally found the time to read them. Discovering her careful handwriting in the margins of these books has revealed a new and somewhat startling side to my prim and proper Grandmother. What you mark and highlight says a lot about your thoughts and beliefs. It’s like a second history is being told in these pages. I’ve decided to leave my own trail of marginalia for my daughter, should she find the patience and fortitude to complete this generational journey herself one day.

A Slow Read of The Story of Civilization

 

Favorites of the Year

My favorite novel in 2023 was Small Mercies by Dennis Lehane. It’s a bleak book, but protagonist Mary Pat Fennessy is one of the most compelling characters I’ve encountered in a long, long while. She made the bleakness of this book and its theme of parental grief worth it. I will reread this one if only to spend more time with Mary Pat.

I love essays and usually read a half dozen essay compilations during any given year. My favorite this year was These Precious Days by Ann Patchett, who also narrated the audiobook. I recall precise moments on my walks through our neighborhood here in Verrado as I stopped to soak in the wisdom and honesty of this brilliant author speaking to me through my AirPods.

My favorite non-fiction book was The Art of Living by Thich Nhat Hanh. Sometimes, the universe sends you exactly the book you most need to read. What a clear-eyed and compelling manifesto of living your best life right now.

Stephen King Challenge

In May, I discovered I had read more Stephen King novels than any other author, living or otherwise. Out of his 74 published works of fiction (excluding collaborations), I had read an astonishing 47 of them. It shouldn’t surprise me that I’ve read so much of this author. I love a good yarn, and Mr. King is almost certainly our generation’s most preeminent storyteller. I count Misery, The Dark Tower series, The Stand, and The Shining as some of my all-time favorite reads.

So, I decided to go back and read the 28 books I had missed along the way. In 2023, I read 14 of those, including his most recent novel, Holly. My favorite from the year was Night Shift, his first collection of short stories published in 1977.

I look forward to tackling the remaining 14 unread gems in 2024 before the prolific Mr. King publishes his next book.

More Physical Books in 2023

For the past few years, I’ve borrowed most of the books I read from the library on my Kindle using the Libby app. This year, two-thirds of the books I read were physical copies I own. There was a reason for this change.

We moved from Washington state to Arizona late last year, which afforded the possibility of a larger home library. In my old library, I had to donate a book to make room for every new one I purchased. After nearly twenty years of scanning the crammed shelves for the next sacrifice, choosing what book to cull became excruciating. Borrowing books on Libby seemed the more humane choice.

The new library was indeed more spacious. Once all sixty boxes of books from the move were properly shelved, I marveled at the many gaps between books. This was all the invitation I needed. With joyful abandon, I bought dozens of books during the year to fill those unsightly gaps. I joined two book clubs. I experienced once again that long-forgotten thrill of leaving a used bookstore with a bagful of books. The gaps slowly narrowed and finally evaporated. I struggled in vain to find an open spot for Wednesday’s Child by Yiyun Li, the last book I finished this year.

In a library, no empty shelf remains empty for long… Ultimately the number of books always exceeds the space they are granted. — Alberto Manguel

The coming year will see another series of book sacrifices and likely a return to library borrowing. I enjoyed this book buying spree while it lasted.

My Reading System

I use the Craft app to house all my reading notes and links to my personal note system. I passed the three-year mark of using Craft and have now written and linked over 250 literature notes in this quasi-Zettelkasten system. The connections between books and ideas inside Craft have produced more than a few epiphanies and have indeed taken on a life of its own as a knowledge system.

I continue to be an avid fan of the ReadWise service to collect and review notes and highlights from my reading. I added 234 new highlights to the system this year, bringing me to 1,600 total passages in ReadWise. My daily review of five random selected highlights always makes me smile … and ponder.

Craft and ReadWise form a system that helps me retain and leverage more of what I read. For as much time and money as I spend with my nose in a book, these tools ensure I get the best return for that investment. If you’re curious about either of these apps, please see my earlier post, Read Better with Craft and ReadWise.

The Year Ahead

At my steady pace of 30 pages per evening, I expect to finish The Story of Civilization sometime late in 2024. Beyond that, I’ve been toying with the idea of reading only books I already own, reading only books written in the last year, books written more than a hundred years ago, or reading books I’ve already read. But I know myself. I won’t do any of these things. Books are a comfort to me, and the right book at the right time is the best comfort of all. I’ll know it when I read it.

The Age of Faith by Will Durant

Finished reading: The Age of Faith by Will Durant 📚

I finished this fourth installment of Will Durant’s Story of Civilization after three months of slow, careful reading. The Age of Faith begins with the fall of Rome and carries through the end of the Middle Ages. The writing is clear, colorful, engaging, often horrifying, and occasionally laugh-out-loud hilarious. Along the way, I encountered kings and popes, treachery and atrocities, saints and philosophers, economic systems, the building of cathedrals and castles, and primers on the great works of literature and philosophy across a thousand years of recorded time.

I’ve come to cherish these nighttime hours I spend with Professor Durant. I am pacing myself to read just twenty or thirty pages per night. I keep an iPad nearby for searches on historical figures or glimpses of the landmarks and architecture he paints with his words. A favorite moment during the book was playing an album of Ambrosian Chants (Apple Music Link) that, according to Durant, mesmerized the faithful within the already awe-inspiring gothic cathedrals of the 13th century. Between Durant’s descriptions and the music, I felt utterly transported.

There have been more than a few times when my jaw dropped open in sheer disbelief at what I’ve read; shocked not only by the crazy shit that took place during these dark times of our history, but that it took so many years for me to learn all of this. To quote Durant: “Education is the progressive discovery of our ignorance.” I am getting quite the education.

I’m moving on to the next volume on the Italian Renaissance as part of a slow but steady read through all eleven volumes of this incredible body of work. What a journey this has become.

The Curiosity of Micro.blog

How I fell into a trance with the Indy blog service, Micro.blog, is a curious story.

I received a renewal invoice from HostGator notifying me that the cost of my bi-annual web hosting service was going up 58%. Quick math informed me that I was paying too much for a personal blog. Surely there must be a less expensive alternative? That question led me down many paths, most leading me in circles.

Moving to Wordpress.com seemed like a good idea until I realized its plug-in-enabled service made even HostGator’s renewal price seem like a steal. I considered Medium and Substack, but their continual pestering readers to subscribe to their respective services didn't mesh with my belief in the value of an open internet. Many other competing web hosting services offered attractive short-term teaser rates but would require constant leapfrogging from service to service to remain affordable.

One service — Micro.blog — caught my attention briefly. $5 a month for hosting your blog with your own domain, a federated service that automated cross-posting to all sorts of other sites, and a blogging platform that allowed you to publish both long essays and short tweet-like updates to a timeline with no ads and no algorithms. No spam, no trolls. No fake news. Just old-fashioned blogging.

As I dug deeper for alternatives, I was reminded that HostGator not only supplied my personal blog but also housed my boat blog, our family website, their respective registered domains, and, importantly, email accounts for my entire family. Canceling HostGator would be a considerable disruption. Moving to a competing hosting service would be a chore—a big one.

After a week of researching my website options, I called HostGator about the price increase. The call took five minutes of mild negotiating. By the time I hung up, they had reduced the increase by two-thirds. It was still going up 17%, but given the cost of other services and the work involved in switching, I felt I was getting a bargain. I would keep my blog on WordPress with HostGator for another two years.

But, I kept thinking about Micro.blog.

Like many, I've grown distrustful of the big social media sites. I have accounts on most, but I rarely look at them or post to them. An impersonator tried to take over my Instagram account a few weeks ago. My Twitter (X?!) feed is filled with all sorts of craziness. What happened to human civility? Facebook is all ads, and God help me if I click on any of them. When a service is free, you and your posts are the product. That's Business 101. I know there is still a lot of good on these sites, but it’s buried so deep that slogging through it fills me with despair. With all the heady promises that technology would bring us closer together, how did we end up here?

Maybe, I mused, I still needed Micro.blog after all. What if, alongside my longer posts on my regular blog, I shared the updates on Micro.blog that I used to post on social media? I kept thinking: no ads and no algorithms. No spam, no trolls, no likes, no push for followers, no sensational posts designed to go viral. Nothing goes viral on Micro.blog, so there's no need to push fake news—just honest thoughts, pictures, and videos amidst a community of like-minded creators.

What ultimately convinced me to sign up with Micro.blog was learning about its founder, Manton Reece ([@manton](https://micro.blog/manton)). I read his blog posts about the purpose of Micro.blog. I perused his manifesto on Indie Microblogging. I watched a few videos of him being interviewed, looking to me like a young Steve Jobs, clearly brilliant, explaining the social good of the service and how he and his team are trying to make the world a better place through this technology. His scorn for traditional social media is palpable. I liked him at once. He's one of the good guys. You can tell. How could I not support this cause?

So, I have joined Micro.blog ([@robertbreen](https://micro.blog/robertbreen)). You can follow me there by clicking the menu link at the top of my home page at robertbreen.com, or you can see a summary of my latest updates on the right sidebar on most of the pages on my website. Essays and longer posts will still appear here on the regular blog. Shorter posts and updates on my travels, the books I'm reading, and the daily happenings in my life will hit Micro.blog. I hope you'll have a look. And who knows? You might be the next to fall under the curious trance of Micro.blog and its mission to save blogging.

The Wastelands

Grieving the loss of a child is a journey through wastelands you never expected to cross. Unlike every other challenge you’ve ever faced, there is no easy way through a loss like this. You stumble and fall. You curse. You are hobbled and bloody. You are not sure of the way. You might be going in circles.

The truth is everyone suffers in this life. It’s our lot to take the awful with the beautiful. We all must face it. In a perfect world, your mom wouldn’t forget you in the fog of Alzheimer’s Disease. You wouldn’t lose a dear friend to cancer in the prime of her life. Your son wouldn’t die in a motorcycle accident before his twenty-first birthday.

In the months before we lost Connor, we crossed a high wire of reinvention. We retired from our careers. We sold our long-time family home and said goodbye to a lifetime of friends on Vashon Island. We bought a winter home in Arizona with the half-sane plan of living a life split between the summer sea and the winter desert. For half the year, home was where we'd drop the anchor.

Reinvention might come easier for some. I felt like a reluctant hermit crab who knows he must shift to a new shell to survive but dreads the transfer. The plans were years in the making. And just at that vulnerable juncture between one shell and the other, that final letting go of the safety and security of the familiar for the heady promise of a new life, a tsunami upends everything, stranding this naked, scared crab, its tiny claws raised as if to fight the wind and water and waves.

And yet, life continues. We settled into the new house in Arizona. Little bursts of joy came from unexpected sources: the convenience of curbside trash and recycling, reliable high-speed internet, and kind, welcoming neighbors. I unpacked the sixty boxes of books that make up my library, caressing each volume, inhaling its scent, remembering its message as I slowly rebuilt my sanctuary, my illusive shell.

A Sanctuary of Books
A Sanctuary of Books

Reading has always been a solace. I read a lot of history and philosophy these past months: the marvels of early Egypt and the brutality of Ancient Rome in Will Durant’s grand opus, The Story of Civilization; the millions of years of Earth’s geology poetically taught in Basin and Range by John McPhee; and the insignificance of our human existence in a careening, infinite universe in Probable Impossibilities by Alan Lightman. Taking a dispassionate view can ease the sting of personal loss.

We sold MV Indiscretion this spring, saying goodbye to trawler life and our ties to the Pacific Northwest. I have let go of so many layers of my identity — business professional, islander, sailor, son to my parents, and now father to my son — that it felt right to reach back to utter beginnings, where I might remake myself, like Gandalf after his plunge from the Bridge of Moria.

We bought a small off-road capable RV in April and have taken a few trips to explore the deserts and mountains of the Southwest. In June, we crossed into Mexico to camp on the shores of the Sea of Cortez. These months in the desert were the longest I’ve strayed from the ocean in my entire life. I missed the smell of the sea and the feel of dried salt on my skin. We waded in the warm surf, feeling once again that indescribable joy of shifting sand under our heels and between our toes while flocks of pelicans dove for their dinner a few yards from us.

I sat beside tide pools nestled within the rocky outcrops that lay between long stretches of sand: hermit crabs battling to defend their territories, starfish, sea stars, sea slugs, mussels, sea urchins, and tiny brine shrimp, all pursuing the minutiae of their daily lives. Looking up into the cosmos and down into a tide pool, I noted the parallels: we are all one.

A strong south wind picked up one night, and gusts gently rocked the RV on its suspension. I emerged from a heavy sleep to check the anchor, trying to remember how far we were from the rocks on shore. I drifted back to sleep, still dreaming we were afloat. I know the sea beckons on the far side of this wilderness.

Camping on the Sea of Cortez
Camping on the Sea of Cortez

After a long period of intentional isolation, I have begun the process of reconnecting with old friends and making new friends here in Arizona. This has been difficult for me. They ask me how I’m doing. Am I OK? I don’t have an answer. “What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step,” said Antoine de Saint-Exupery. Every day, I take a step.

I’m writing this tonight from a small campground in southern Colorado. We’ve been traveling for a few weeks, taking the backroads, stopping often, seeing where the open road takes us. We have no plan, no definite time to return. It feels good to roam.

Driving through western New Mexico, I felt a lightness I didn’t expect. The beauty of the colorful mesas and buttes rising around us filled me with awe. We hiked to La Ventana Natural Arch to find ourselves in an ancient, sacred place — a place of prayer and hope and resilience. It left me wanting to see more, to do more. For the first time in many months, my mind tilted forward, a blessed release from so much focus on the past.

La Ventana Natural Arch in New Mexico
La Ventana Natural Arch in New Mexico

Every day brings a little more joy and a little less sadness. On good days, I see a brightening just over the horizon. A clearing? Yet there are still those days when I sink deep into sorrow and recognize the false dawn. There is no way around this, only forward, across this barren terrain. One step. Then another. When I dare look around, I see so many others walking beside me. Grief is the price we all pay for love. Won’t you take my hand? It won’t be long now. If death has taught me anything, it's that nothing persists, not even grief.

All Good Things

After five years of amazing adventures aboard our Nordhavn trawler MV Indiscretion, we’ve decided it’s time for a change. We are coming off the water.

We didn’t plan on this. We dreamed for decades to be at this very spot in our lives — casting off the bowlines to explore the world under our own keel at the unhurried pace of seven knots. But life doesn’t always work out like you hoped.

On September 27th, 2022, our son Connor was killed in a motorcycle accident in Colorado Springs. A car pulled out in front of him on a busy street a half mile from his apartment. He was just twenty years old.

After Connor’s death, reeling with loss, we took what would be our final cruise aboard Indiscretion. We were in shock and did not know what else to do. If any solace were possible for our crushed family, we thought it must be found in the harbors and bays of our beloved San Juan Islands. Our daughter accompanied us, and her partner joined a week later. We met up with dear friends from MV Fortitude and MV Equinox who helped distract us from our misery with companionship and love. Still, every anchorage, every island hike, every trip ashore in the tender, every sunset and moonrise — all of it reminded us of Connor’s absence. We found peace but agony too, as this new reality sunk in.

Connor and Lisa
Connor and Lisa

We put the boat away in November and headed south to our new winter home here in Arizona. We’ve spent these past months wondering how we move forward after such a tragedy.

Each time we discussed our return in the spring, we both felt despondent. Our plans to cruise to Alaska this summer felt empty and joyless. Despite our love for the pristine cruising grounds of the Salish Sea and our wonderful boat friends we’ve met along the way, we just couldn’t imagine resuming our life afloat.

Connor spent his youth sailing and boating with us, and the reminder of the memories we made together is simply too painful. In this new grief-stricken world, returning to the familiar and comfortable fills us with dread; we need to invent a new life that won’t constantly remind us of our loss. And maybe, in the process, allow us to accept what feels unacceptable.

These precious moments  …
These precious moments …

Here’s a lesson for us all. Despite our best wishes and plans, life is incredibly uncertain. We don’t know what the future may bring. No one does. We insist on having it all figured out before acting on our dreams. But sometimes, before the plan is perfected, the unthinkable changes everything. If there’s one bit of advice I could offer, it’s this: don’t wait. Go sooner. Better yet, go now. Right now is all we have. You may not get another chance.

The greatest obstacle to living is expectancy, which hangs upon tomorrow and loses today. You are arranging what lies in Fortune’s control, and abandoning what lies in yours. What are you looking at? To what goal are you straining? The whole future lies in uncertainty: live immediately.  -- Seneca

We aren’t saying goodbye to adventure. That’s the last thing Connor would have wanted. Instead, we’ve decided to pivot in a direction that will honor his memory and allow us the chance to heal without the constant reminder of our loss. In the last two years of his life, he developed a passion for off-roading in his Jeep. He and his friends would take old forest service roads deep into the Colorado mountains, looking for challenging routes that might tax the 4x4’s crawling capabilities. The battered underside of his Jeep proves he pushed that vehicle to its limits. We treasure the selfies he sent us from the summits of his off-road adventures, the vivid blue sky and Rocky Mountain vistas framing his smiling delight.

Connor and his Jeep
Connor and his Jeep

In that spirit, we bought an off-road capable RV, more akin to a camper van than a plush motorhome, that we’ll use to explore the deserts and mountains that Connor grew to love in the last years of his life. We’ve never been a fan of crowded RV parks, so we chose a rig that can take us far off the beaten path — boondocking as it’s known in RV vernacular — the boating equivalent of dropping the hook in a secluded anchorage. On some trips, we’ll tow Connor’s old Jeep to seek out the otherwise unreachable places he would have loved to see. It comforts us that we’ll follow a path our son would have taken had he lived.

New adventures.
New adventures.

As we close this chapter, we are grateful for the adventures and friendships we enjoyed during our five years of trawler life. Joining the Nordhavn family, even aboard one of the smallest vessels in the fleet, was both a privilege and a joy. I learned so much from the many experienced captains and marine experts who freely shared their wisdom with me time and again. I felt like I was getting to the point where my growing skills and talents could be paid forward to the newest crop of skippers. And oh, will we miss the friends we met along the way. I have to trust that our paths will somehow cross again in the future.

We are incredibly grateful to Devin Zwick of Nordhavn Northwest. In all my years of boating, I’ve rarely encountered a more capable, knowledgeable and compassionate yacht professional. Devin personally skippered the boat from her slip in Seattle to Anacortes, oversaw her annual haul-out, worked with me remotely to iron out the logistics and terms of the sale, and found a terrific new owner for Indiscretion — all in the course of a few short weeks. They say the happiest days in a skipper’s life are when he buys and sells a boat. This is surely not the case with Indiscretion. We dearly love this trawler. But Devin worked extremely hard to make the process as seamless for us as possible. For most people, there’s an “oh shit, what have I done” moment before you sign the papers to buy a boat, particularly one as expensive as a Nordhavn trawler. Our story should lessen the uneasiness for those about to make this plunge. Believe me, that spreadsheet you keep studying won’t help you. Go for it. You only pass this way once.

I kept this blog as a way to share my amazement and good fortune at having the chance to operate and cruise aboard a little ship like Indiscretion. Many nights I sat in the darkened pilothouse when everyone was already asleep, listening to the sounds of the wind, watching the moonlight on the water and the spin of the lights on shore as we circled our anchor, feeling utterly incredulous at my luck. I hope these posts have been informative and inspiring to others who also feel drawn to the wildness and tranquility of the ocean.

And who knows? I’ve skippered a boat for most of my adult life. We might find our way back to the shore one day when the pull of the saltwater in our veins overtakes the grief in our hearts. In a world where nothing is certain, anything is possible.

A Father’s Grief

This is the most difficult thing I've ever written. I’m sharing this partly because I hope that releasing these words will provide some catharsis from the excruciating pain I have carried around these last months. Perhaps the sentiments I’ve conveyed here can be a small comfort to someone who has experienced a similar tragedy. I also know that people are worried about us, about me. Consider this an abbreviated journal of our past one hundred days. Unlike anything else I’ve written, this one contains no epiphany, enlightenment, or happy ending. This one is mired in the messy middle of heartbreak and loss.

On the night of September 27th, our son Connor died in a motorcycle accident in Colorado Springs. A car pulled out in front of him on a busy street a half mile from his apartment. He was killed instantly in the crash. He was riding a motorcycle he had owned for just one day. He was twenty years old.

I mentally replay the call we received from the coroner’s office in the wee hours of September 28th over and over and over again, my mind trying to push this all away, to wake up from the darkest, longest nightmare of my life.

I look back at that person I was on September 26th — that carefree soul with so many blessings — and compare him to the person I am today: darkened, sorrowful, broken. The two of us could be long-separated brothers, but a world apart in life experience. I no longer recognize that other me who swung so happily from the thinnest of threads, not understanding his entire world could crumble in the space of a single heartbeat.

Lisa and I have faced our share of grief together. First her mom, then mine. Her dad, then my dad. With each of these losses, one of us was always the stronger one, there to hold the other, to give comfort, to listen. This was the first time in our marriage that neither of us was strong enough to hold up the other. Thankfully, dear friends joined us on the boat to help us make it through the day, make travel arrangements, encourage us to eat, and simply hold us. I am forever grateful to these friends who also lost a near-family member for their love and help on that hardest day.

When the shock wore off and grim reality set in, we rallied as a family to do what we must. Our daughter Mallory took a leave of absence from work and joined us in Colorado Springs to help with Connor's arrangements. During breaks from our awful tasks, we hiked the hills that he loved. We hungered for stories from his friends about his last days, his last night. We splashed the healing waters of Manitou Springs on our faces, needing their restorative powers to give us the strength to finalize the affairs of such a young life, a life so wholly intertwined with ours that we struggled to find where he ended and we continue.

We returned to Seattle utterly bereft. Unable to face the grief and sorrow of others, we stole away for the San Juan Islands aboard the trawler in an attempt to regain our equilibrium. Connor spent his entire life around saltwater and boats. We knew that if there was any way for us to find peace after something like this, it would be on the water. We could feel his presence in every anchorage, every trip ashore in the tender, every meal around the saloon table, every sunset and moonrise. Visiting these familiar islands over those two weeks was both a comfort and an agony.

Moonrise in Friday Harbor, San Juan Island
Moonrise in Friday Harbor, San Juan Island

We returned to port steadier but still reeling. We held a small gathering of Connor's closest friends to mourn his passing. I was surprised and grateful that so many made the long trip from Colorado to Vashon Island to attend this memorial. It took everything I had to talk with others about my son in the past tense. There were tears but also smiles and laughter as we collectively remembered his life and the impact he had on all those around him. It was the first time since his passing that I remembered him with more love than pain.

In November, Lisa and I drove south to Southern California. We took the coastal route, stopping frequently to gaze at the ocean, to feel the pounding of surf, to take in giant lungfuls of healing sea air. Lisa took this same route in reverse with Connor in 2020, when his university in Colorado Springs closed down because of COVID. She pointed out the places they stopped and the sights they took in together, as if a part of him were still there, waiting for us.

Coquille River Jetty near Bandon on the Oregon coast
Coquille River Jetty near Bandon on the Oregon coast

We stretched a three-day trip into a week, knowing somehow that it was important for us to linger. We are feeling our way through this. There are no charts, no waypoints to follow, only instinct, love, and shared grief.

I poured my sorrow into a journal each morning and night to help me make sense of what had happened. You can trace the first stages of grief in those early entries: shock and denial, the second guessing and what-ifs, the heartbreak and rage at the universe knowing that Connor would miss the most beautiful aspects of life: falling in love, finding his path, becoming a father himself one day.

On Thanksgiving morning, I forced myself to write what I was most thankful for as Connor's father. I wrote how grateful I was to have had the chance to be his dad, that I took a sabbatical from work to spend more time with him and his sister as teenagers, that he was able to squeeze so much life and adventure into his twenty short years, that he died doing something he loved.

Luckily, we spent Thanksgiving — our first holiday without Connor — surrounded by the comfort of extended family and the welcome chaos only small children can bring to a home.

In December, we moved into our new winter home here in Arizona. The sunshine and change of scenery from our life on the trawler have been a welcome change. Mallory and her partner drove from California to spend Christmas with us. We tried to be festive and honor Connor’s memory on a holiday he dearly loved.

As I write this, It's been one hundred days since he died. I cringe at these words — their harsh reality, their certainty. There are moments, sometimes whole hours, when I forget.

The nights are the worst. I wake most mornings with tears in my eyes. My subconscious won’t accept the truth. It's as if I'm learning, again and again, the facts of this unbearable loss with each new day. My son is gone.

If Lisa rises before me, I approach her quietly, softly, like someone waiting for word in a hospital lounge, anxious for a loved one whose prognosis is not good. "How did you sleep?" I ask her out of kindness, but I already know the answer. I wonder if these splinters that keep stabbing us will ever wear down to mere rough edges.

I looked to the ancient sages who did so much to shape how I live my life: Epictetus, Seneca the Younger, Marcus Aurelius. Their counsel when I was young helped me reconcile our universal longing for permanence in this short life we are given. I tried to apply their teachings to what happened to Connor, to regain my Stoic footing, but Memento Mori feels so hollow and pointless when I consider the death of this young man whose life had only just started.

I've never been religious, but I suddenly ache for the certainty and hope the faithful possess. I have listened to Mozart’s Requiem dozens of times these past months. Though I don’t understand the Latin, there’s something universal in the music that communicates comfort and awe on a spiritual, perhaps even molecular level. Since Connor’s death, my uneasiness with mortality has softened. I look forward to the chance, however slim, of seeing my son again, and if not, to know at least that we'll be together in that vast universal void.

Our plans to cruise the northern reaches of British Columbia and Alaska next summer aboard our trawler feel somehow awful, as if our fairy tale life could possibly continue after such a loss. I feel like making a new start in the desert, to follow the dirt roads and mountain passes where Connor found such happiness in the last year of his life, to cauterize this paralyzing sadness and emerge somehow transformed, reformed, like Phoenix from the ashes.

I remain a proud father to my beautiful daughter Mallory, who inspires me daily with her kindness, intelligence, and generosity. There were days when she was my lifeboat, the one who pulled me to safety from the wreckage. After all those years of holding her hand, she held mine. We need each other more than ever now.

And I have my Lisa, my best friend and soulmate. We may look at the world through different lenses and leverage different strengths, but we never waver on the big things — what’s most important to us and our family. We’re apart for the first time since we lost Connor as she celebrates the birthday of her grand-nephew in Los Angeles. I miss her dearly. We’re two leaning pillars that can only stand upright because of the other’s weight and support. I like to think of myself as mentally and emotionally strong, but I know this: she’s the reason I’ve maintained my sanity through this ordeal. Without her love and support, I don’t know where I’d be.

A family friend who suffered the loss of her 24-year-old son called us shortly after Connor died. Her loss was still very fresh — just three months — but she was strong enough to help us in a way that no one else could. She understood exactly what we were going through.

One stranger who understands your experience exactly will do for you what hundreds of close friends and family who don’t understand cannot. It is the necessary palliative for the pain of stretching into change. It is the cool glass of water in hell. 

— Laura Mckowen, We Are the Luckiest

She recommended a book that helped her: Finding Meaning by David Kessler. In his career as a grief counselor, Mr. Kessler helped develop the now-famous five stages of death and dying, and tragically suffered the loss of his 21-year-old son before writing this book.

Reading this book did help me. I began to see that what happened to Connor, though horrible, wasn’t that rare. Many, many parents have gone through this same torture of the loss of a child, some much younger, or through circumstances riddled with regret and even more heartbreak. I learned that the agony of grief is equal to the devotion and love you had. It’s no surprise that I am utterly gutted. I loved that boy so much.

About three months after Kessler’s son died, a colleague sent him this note: “I know you’re drowning. You’ll keep sinking for a while, but there will come a point when you’ll hit bottom. Then you’ll have a decision to make. Do you stay there or push off and start to rise again?”

And that’s where I find myself today: at rock bottom or very near it. I too have a choice to make. Will I stay down here to flounder? Or will I swim for the surface? A part of me knows there are many magical moments yet to be shared with family and friends, to begin again to appreciate the everyday joy of life. Will I ever again choose joy? I hope someday I can.

Thank you for reaching the end of this meandering post. If you made it this far, you must either really care about me and my family, or you’ve been part of a similar tragedy yourself and are looking for some comfort. If it’s the former, I am grateful for your concern during this most difficult time. If it’s the latter, I hope you find peace in your own way, and in your own time.

Connor Dennis Alfred Breen (January 29, 2002 - September 27, 2022)
Connor Dennis Alfred Breen (January 29, 2002 - September 27, 2022)

Shilshole Marina — The Voyage Home

Kicking back in the cockpit of Indiscretion on this fine May evening, I've been thinking about how life has a way of circling back on itself in strange, unexpected ways.

We've been settled in our new slip at Shilshole Marina in Seattle for a month now as we finalize the sale of our Vashon Island home. After all the frenetic activity involved in readying a house to sell, it feels good just to be still and observe the hustle and bustle that surrounds us here, in what surely must be the very center of the trawler universe.

Walking the dogs from our slip on J dock.
Walking the dogs from our slip on J dock.

Shilshole Marina is home to nearly 1,500 slips and one of the world's largest communities of liveaboard boaters. Every marine service imaginable can be found within a five-minute drive to nearby Ballard. What once was a five-hour trip to have the boat hauled out at Seaview Boatyard can now be accomplished without even leaving the breakwater.

And then there's the community. We find ourselves surrounded by kindred spirits who have gravitated to a seafaring lifestyle that most can't begin to understand. I have this feeling that we've slipped through a portal to an alternate universe where it's perfectly normal to sell your house and move on a boat, to laugh maybe a little too much, to enjoy a dockside bagpipe concert while you're sipping your morning coffee on the flybridge, and to fall into new friendships with people you just met but feel like you've known your whole life. We have found our tribe.

This spirit of community has even infected the marina staff, who, by decree, are charged with throwing up obstacles and rules and prohibitions.

Last week, I changed the oil on all three engines on Indiscretion as part of our preparation for summer cruising. The marina offers on-site oil recycling, but a large red sign near the tank proclaims a limit of five gallons of oil. I had close to nine gallons. Here we go, I thought.

The oil tank was padlocked, so I went to ask for the key at the office. They would have someone meet me at the tank shortly. I pushed my dock cart with its two waste oil containers the 200 yards to the north-end of the marina. By the time I arrived, the tank was already unlocked, and the marina staff person was getting back into her Port of Seattle truck. I thanked her and told her I would lock up when I finished. She smiled, welcomed me to the marina, and drove off.

As I carried the first five gallon container to the tank, I watched the truck slowly reverse course out of the corner of my eye. The truck stopped next to me and the window rolled down. Here it comes.

"I forgot to mention," she said. "There's a separate area on the south end of the marina that you can safely dispose of coolant, bilge water, old fuel, and batteries in case you ever need that." She smiled, waved and drove off.

We've definitely entered the multiverse.

Penguin, a beautiful Nordhavn 46, entering the northern breakwater.
Penguin, a beautiful Nordhavn 46, entering the northern breakwater.

Selling the house, moving aboard the boat, and arriving here at Shilshole marks an exciting new chapter for us, but it's also a return to our beginning.

Lisa and I met playing pool in a dive bar not five miles from here. Seattle has has changed a lot in thirty years, but that bar on Stone Way — The Pacific Inn Pub — still looks the same.

Looking south through the forest of masts, I can make out the very apartment that Lisa and I shared when we were first married 25 years ago. Neither of us were boaters then, but an extra allotment of saltwater in our veins must have drawn us here to the shore.

I recall watching boat traffic on the ship canal over beers at the long gone Bait Shop Cafe. A glorious wooden trawler glided by, and though we didn’t know stem from stern, the possibilities of far flung adventure did not escape our rapt attention.

Across the fairway from us lies a small fleet of Seattle Sailing Club sailboats. I enjoy watching the crews of new sailors take to sea each evening. I'll admit my heart races a little when a novice skipper backs a J-105 into the fairway, coming out hot, sometimes uncomfortably close to a collision without casting a single backwards glance.

Crews getting ready for an evening sail.
Crews getting ready for an evening sail.

I went sailing for the first time at that very club in 1997. I learned the parts of the rig and how to tie a bowline in the cockpit of a 26-foot Capri sloop tied up less than 100 feet away from where I now sit. It took just one afternoon on Shilshole Bay to ignite a lifelong passion for sailing. I can still remember the exhilaration I felt as the sound of the engine faded away and the boat heeled and shot forward, my grip fastened to the tiller as if by electric shock, my whole being immersed in the connection between wind, sail and rudder.

That afternoon sail, which soon resulted in the purchase of our own Ericson 35 sailboat, also marked the end of our time at Shilshole. We moved to Vashon Island to start a family and a new life in the country.

The Ericson made way for a succession of boats over two decades that taught me the rules of the road, the ways of the sea, the art of sail trim to gain an extra half knot through the water, the fickleness of marine engines, the dangers of singlehanded sailing.

Truth be told, my life should have ended twenty years ago. Alone in a remote anchorage, I fell overboard into a fast running current in 42 degree water. No life jacket. No one else on board to assist. Through sheer luck, a keen-eyed boater plucked me out of the water as I drifted out to sea and certain death. A guardian angel took pity on me that fateful morning, and I got a second chance at life.

Over the many years of sailing out of Vashon, we made a few stops here at Shilshole, but never longer than a day or two. It feels decadent to call this our home, like we've taken a permanent suite at a luxury hotel.

Shilshole on a calm night.
Shilshole on a calm night.

The fact is, we don't truly live here. With the closing of the sale of our house a few days away, we are anxious to put some nautical miles under our keel without worrying about how high the grass is or what home repair project might be waiting.

Keeping this slip at Shilshole gives us the perfect home base for expeditions through these beautiful Pacific Northwest waters, and yet still have a place to rest up, lick our wounds, and draw upon the finest trawler marine services in the world as the need arises.

But first, let me take in this quiet moment of reflection to simply enjoy the warmth of the setting sun and give thanks for all the many tacks and gybes that carried us to this special place, here and now.

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The Art of Letting Go

If the first half of life is about growing and accumulating, then the second half must see us disbursing, letting go. Life is full of cycles — like the seasons, or perhaps more dear to me, the flooding and ebbing of tides.

In the past few years, I’ve let go of my aging parents, my career and a lifetime of associates and colleagues, a dear friend, and this past year I watched my two kids leave home to start their own lives of growth and accumulation.

At its best, letting go brings an emotional release, a lightness, a feeling of immense relief, like putting down a heavy weight you’ve been carrying around for too long. At its worst, it brings a paralyzing sense of irretrievable loss. I’ve been thinking about these two very different outcomes as we navigate our next phase of letting go.

I’m told your house never looks as good as the day you sell, and after twenty-three years here on Vashon Island, we’re close to reaching that particular zenith. White paint has stained my fingers and forearm, and a big smear tattoos my right cheek. The list of projects has dwindled over the past weeks, and we’re down to just a few beauty marks.

After each section of trim I painted today, I found myself looking out at the water on this sunny Spring day. You’d think after all these years I’d take this view of Puget Sound for granted, but I don’t. For a spell, I watched a container ship make its way southbound to offload in Tacoma, its wake stretching out for miles in the flat water.

On clear days you can see Whidbey Island from our front porch. Such a wide, unencumbered expanse of water provides a theatrical experience for watching weather systems roll through, especially the northern gales in deep winter. Dark gray squalls march across the water, relentless in their intensity, unstoppable in their progress. Bald eagles float just fifty yards off the porch, contorting their wings in tiny increments to remain utterly still as they study the whipped up sea for a meal. The Firs and the big Japanese Maple tree groan and shudder in the gusts. The biting sting of the wind on your cheek makes you appreciate the warmth inside the house as you take all this in.

They say it takes a special kind of person to live on an island like Vashon. Betty MacDonald wrote her memoir Onions in the Stew while living here in the 1940s. Most of her humorous observations about the eccentricities and shortcomings of island life still ring true.

Anyone contemplating island dwelling must be physically strong and it is an added advantage if you aren’t too bright.

Vashon is nestled in southern Puget Sound halfway between Seattle and Tacoma. The island population of roughly ten thousand hasn’t budged much in thirty years. There are no bridges that connect us to the mainland. Ferries on the north and sound ends of the island are the gateways to visit or leave.

Unlike more tourist-minded destinations, Vashon grooves with its own unique personality. Some say that driving off the ferry boat and winding your way through its rural roads is like going back in time. “Keep Vashon Weird” bumper stickers adorn VW buses and BMWs alike. Eco-friendly farmers, artists, hippies, celebrities, weekenders, old families, newcomers, commuters, eccentrics, musicians, professionals … a hodgepodge brought together by a love of saltwater, an unconventional lifestyle, and geographic seclusion.

I’ve lived here far longer than any other place. I’ve put down deep roots. In 35 years of life before Vashon, I moved some twenty times, from one house or apartment to the next, every year or two, which at the time seemed perfectly normal. Growing up, my parents had this ache in them to roam. We moved every year in my four years of high school. I was a shy kid. By the time I made any friends, we were packing up for the next town.

Lisa, my partner these many years, also led a wandering life as a child. Instead of traipsing through small Washington coastal towns, she lived abroad, calling places like Singapore, Indonesia, Saudi Arabia, and Thailand her home. Her father worked in construction, and when the job ended, they moved on. Again and again.

From the early days of our relationship, we kindled a dream of running off together. A ranch in Montana, a seaside villa in Mexico, a flat in Madrid. Six months into our courtship, we spent three weeks touring Greece and decided, after perhaps a bit too much Ouzo, to get married there and then on the island of Skiathos. Neither of us had met the other’s parents, and our stunned friends were sure the marriage would not last out the year. But when you know, you know.

When our daughter was born, we vowed to give her something we never had: a consistent, unchanging childhood home. We moved to Vashon just shy of her first birthday, and she and her younger brother grew up in the same house, in the same little town, with the same friends from pre-school tots to angsty high school seniors. When the time for college rolled around, both were desperate to get away from a place so small and remote. Yet, later in life, I wonder if the deep-rooted memories of sandy beaches, quiet forests, and a one-block town without traffic lights become a subconscious yardstick for the ideal life?

The house, built in 1917, turned one hundred during our time here. At one point or another, we’ve remodeled just about every inch of her, but we always stayed true to her spirit. She’s an old soul, sitting atop this hill looking out over the water. I realize we’ve just been her caretakers for a time.

I left the island every morning by ferry for twenty years and suffered through my fair share of business travel. Returning home, breathing seemed easier, the sea air and open vista perhaps working together to inflate my lungs more completely than anywhere else. The sound of the gentle surf through the open skylight lulled me quickly to sleep when I fell into my own bed at last. This island home has always been my sanctuary.

Every so often, a grandchild of the former owners stops by to see the house. Fully grown now, they look around, starstruck. “I spent every summer here when I was little,” a lady in her mid-twenties tells me, close to tears. They will have brought their partner along as witness to a living piece of their childhood.

I learned to sail on Vashon, and the connection between boating and island life is inexorably linked. I’ve sailed along her forty-five miles of coastline countless times, and my family knows to spread my ashes in Quartermaster Harbor should the sudden need arise. For years, we kept a mooring buoy in the deep water in front the house. It became a summer tradition to sail the boat around from the marina for crabbing and sailing and floating picnics.

On clear nights, I would sometimes sneak down the long flight of beach stairs to sail alone under the stars. Lying back in the cockpit, steering with my leg over the tiller, trimming the sails in the darkness by the feel of wind on my cheek. Sailing at night feels so magical: the lift and fall of the gentle swell, the hiss of the waves against the hull, the green glow of phosphor trailing astern, and that dizzying feeling of falling and merging into the galaxy of stars splayed above you. I’ve never felt so utterly connected to the cosmos as on small boat under the stars on a summer night.

Selling the house and moving off island has been our plan for years, so why do I feel so pensive as our time here draws near? My glances around the house and the water are slower, more considered, like Ahab gazing at the sea before his final showdown with the white whale. I strain to hear the tolling of an iron bell, for it’s possible the end of this chapter of island life is followed by mere epilogue. A little voice inside me tells me to stop, to reconsider. The house looks so good; why not stay, the voice implores. I am sorely tempted.

But no. What haunts us late in life are the things we didn’t do. In letting go our island home and life, we step into a new life of two distinct halves: from May through October we’ll live and cruise aboard Indiscretion, our expedition trawler, with Shilshole Marina as our new home port. Near enough to see our friends on Vashon and the perfect launching off spot for exploring the Salish Sea during the best weather the Northwest offers. In October, we’ll drive south to our new home in a 55+ community 40 minutes west of Phoenix, AZ called Victory at Verrado. Six months of warm winter weather, desert hikes, Seattle Mariners spring training, and poorly played golf is just enough time to begin pining for the greens and blues of the beautiful Northwest. We’ll lock up the house in early May and make our way back to Indiscretion for another season.

Lately, I’ve been having this recurring dream of riding in a hot air balloon. The gondola is staked to the beach in front of our house with anchors that seem much too small for such a large craft. An offshore wind buffets the big balloon and I know those anchors can’t hold much longer. The two of us pile in the gondola, which, once aboard, looks weirdly like the pilothouse of a trawler. We release the mooring lines and float up and up into the sky. We clear the tree line and watch our house and the island grow small, insignificant. We keep rising, our view expanding in all directions. I point out the rugged west coast of Vancouver Island and the Sunshine Coast. We float over Desolation Sound, Princess Louisa Inlet, the Broughton Archipelago, and the wide expanse of Queen Charlotte Sound. Ahead, just over the curved horizon lies Alaska. The dream always ends when we toss out the sandbags of ballast at our feet. Maybe we simply fly upwards into the stars. Or, perhaps we set down in Greece to renew our marriage vows, but this time, we stay the whole summer, traveling light.

A New Life of Indiscretion

A sea change is underway for Indiscretion and her crew. In the span of three cold, dark and rainy months here in the Pacific Northwest, we have decided to shake things up in four significant ways.

First, we are selling our waterfront home here on Vashon Island. We’ve lived in this sprawling farmhouse for twenty-three years and raised our family here on this beautiful island. We’ve made lifelong friends and put down roots that run very deep. But keeping an older home on acreage no longer fits our vagabond plans of exploring distant ports by boat. The children that made this house a wonderful family home have grown up and moved thousands of miles away. We have retired from our professional careers, and nothing but familiarity and habit hold us to any particular place. For everything, there is a season, and we think it’s time to cast off the bowlines to chase the next chapter in our lives.

[caption id=“attachment_1118” align=“alignleft” width=“800”] The Family Home[/caption]

Second, we have moved aboard Indiscretion. Shifting from a 4,000 square feet home to a 43-foot trawler requires an adjustment, but the changes are welcome and comforting as we look back on our three weeks of life aboard. Everything on a boat has at least one vital purpose, which appeals to the side of me that craves tidiness and compactness. While waterfront living is nice, living on the water is even better. When your driveway is a dock, and your neighbors are boaters, you can’t help but smile.

[caption id=“attachment_1116” align=“alignleft” width=“800”] Boat neighbors are the best.[/caption]

Third, we are relocating Indiscretion from Vashon Island to Seattle as our official home port. After years of waiting, our number came up for a permanent slip at Shilshole Marina, which boasts of one of the largest liveaboard communities in the world. We’re excited to return to Ballard, where the two of us started our life together so many years ago.

Fourth, we’re building a winter home in Arizona in a 55+ community called Victory at Verrado, which is about 30 minutes west of Phoenix. This was the missing puzzle piece in creating our new hybrid lifestyle, and perhaps the biggest surprise, since the last time I checked, there definitely isn’t any oceanfront property in Arizona.

Summers on the boat, winters in Arizona

We originally planned to take the boat down the coast to Mexico for the winter season and reverse course each spring to the Pacific Northwest. However, we struggled with the idea of leaving our house empty over the damp and cold winters as we weren’t ready to call Indiscretion our permanent home. We briefly considered moving up to a larger Nordhavn for more creature comforts and space — I have a fondness for the beautiful Nordhavn 60 — but it simply wasn’t practical. Everything grows exponentially more complicated and expensive as you move up in size. As an expedition trawler, the Nordhavn 43 is perfect for us.

We also fretted over the uncertainties and discomfort of open-ocean voyaging, particularly the trip back north along the Pacific Coast, aptly named the Baja Bash. The boat could handle it; the weak link is most assuredly the crew.

One early idea was moving south. Lisa grew up in Southern California. She has family in Costa Mesa, and now our daughter lives in Los Angeles. “Let’s sell the house and buy a condo in Newport Beach,” she suggested about a year ago. “We can keep Indiscretion at Dana Point.”

My gut reaction was immediate and emphatic. No. I love Southern California weather, and it would be good to live closer to family, but the cruising opportunities there are too limited. Even after twenty years of boating, I realized that we haven’t even scratched the surface of the destinations available to us right here in the Northwest. A near-endless array of pristine waterways and protected anchorages from the south end of Puget Sound to the northern reaches of the inside passage to Alaska would take a lifetime to explore. This little ship can take us safely and comfortably to destinations that few get a chance to visit: the West Coast of Vancouver Island, the Sunshine Coast, Desolation Sound, Princess Louisa Inlet, the Broughton Archipelago, Prince William Sound … No, we have more to see here.

[caption id=“attachment_1121” align=“aligncenter” width=“525”] So many cruising opportunities (Source: Salish Sea Pilot).[/caption]

So, a new plan has emerged that checks all our boxes: we spend half the year living aboard Indiscretion and the other half in Arizona.

We’ll cruise on Indiscretion full-time from May through October during the most beautiful weather the Pacific Northwest offers. Six months is ample time to see our friends on Vashon and still explore British Columbia and the far reaches of Southeast Alaska. In keeping with an expedition mindset, six months also seems like the perfect amount of time to squeeze the best part of living within the confined spaces of a boat without feeling burned out.

When the weather begins to turn in October, we’ll either winterize the boat at Shilshole with a vessel watch service or sublease the slip and haul out in Anacortes (we’re still deciding that part) and make the three-day drive to Arizona.

Why Arizona? We love the glorious winter weather. A lower cost of living and tax burden also helps. And importantly, we’ll be within driving distance of our kids in Los Angeles and Colorado Springs.

Our new home requires little maintenance and is in a community with plenty of leisure activities. I am looking forward to wearing flip-flops and short sleeves in January while I plot and scheme our cruising itinerary for the coming year.

Six months of warm weather, desert hikes, flushing the toilet without worrying about the current level of the black water tank, pickleball, bad golf, Seattle Mariners baseball spring training, and exploring the town of Verrado in our golf cart is just enough time to begin pining once again for the greens and blues of Northwest boat life. We’ll lock up the house in early May and make our way back to Indiscretion for another season.

[caption id=“attachment_1122” align=“alignleft” width=“800”] Happy snowbirds[/caption]

As new snowbirds, I know we’re following the same well-trodden path as many like-minded Washingtonians grown tired of the winter rain and gloom. Yet, I can’t help but feel we’ve found a way to follow the sun with our summers aboard Indiscretion that still breaks a little from tradition.

How long can we keep up this hybrid trawler-desert lifestyle? I don’t know, but I’d sure like to find out.

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A Writer’s Journal: Day One or Craft?

I’ve kept a journal for most of my adult life. I got started in my early twenties filling dozens of blank journal books. Ten years ago, I went digital with an app called Day One, and I have been using an iPad to journal since then. My journal holds thousands of entries — over a million words — spanning more than thirty years of private thoughts and memories.

Day One is my most consistently used app for the past decade. The app provides a calming, distraction-free writing interface and an end-to-end encrypted syncing service that keeps my writing secure but available on all my devices. It handles photos beautifully, accepts audio and video entries, automatically captures metadata about your writing environment like location and weather, and links automatically with Instagram. Journal templates, writing prompts, and the “On This Day” personal history review round out an incredible journaling experience. I enjoyed it so much that I even took the time a few years ago to type in my old paper journals to have a complete digital record of my life’s musings.

And yet, I’ve had this nagging idea that I should give up on Day One and start using Craft as my daily journal software.

Why would I leave Day One?

On the surface, I’ve wondered if I needed anything more than a basic writing app for my journal. After all, I wrote for years and years with just pen and paper. Did I need a dedicated app with another paid subscription?

Yet, my true interest is more profound than saving money or mere simplification. It’s widely known that to write well; you have to read. There’s no better on-the-job training for an aspiring author than to read the works of other writers. It’s less commonly understood how many writers keep a private journal and, more importantly, how they leverage their private missives as inspiration for their published works. Henry David Thoreau, Joan Didion, and Susan Sontag were avid journalers who attributed at least part of their success to keeping a diary. David Sedaris and Joyce Carol Oates both consider their private journals to be critical parts of their writing process. Ralph Waldo Emerson filled nearly two hundred journal volumes over his lifetime, which he frequently consulted as source material for his essays and speeches. He spent months cataloging his journals to make access easier.

A reason I’ve maintained a journal for so many years stems from a deeply-held desire to become a published author. My earliest journal entries make this point again and again. When I root out the source of my few published pieces, each can be traced back to its origin in my journal.

As much as I love Day One, Craft has stolen my heart as an innovative note-taking and writing app that I’ve used for a little over a year as my knowledge management system. Modeled after Professor Luhmann’s Zettelkasten system, I use Craft to house about a thousand interconnected notes and insights from books I’ve read. The power of connecting reading notes through a system of links and backlinks is truly astonishing once you open your mind to the possibilities. I’ve shared how I use Craft to leverage what I read, and it’s this versatile linking capability that has drawn me to use it for my private journal.

What if, like Emerson, I took steps to make my journals easier to access when I’m writing for others? What if I brought together my journal writing and reading notes into the same cross-linked system? Would the organic connections I’ve discovered from my reading grow deeper through close association with thirty years of journals? Could swirling together my journal writing and book notes in a system like Craft make me a better, more productive writer?

Might the convenience of having all my writing in one place, fueled by the connecting power of links and backlinks, outweigh the benefits of a dedicated journaling app?

To answer these questions, I launched an experiment: I kept my daily journal in Craft for an entire month to see whether or not these private musings would infuse greater insights into my Zettelkasten system and, ultimately, better writing.

As part of the experiment, I imported 3,200 journal entries into Craft to test its search and linking capabilities (see the end of this post if you’re interested in learning how to export Day One to Craft). I initially expected to use Craft’s Daily Notes function but soon decided against that. The implementation of daily notes in Craft felt half-baked and disconnected from the central note-taking system. Instead, I created a “Journal” folder in the main Craft notes area, alongside my reading and permanent notes.

A Month of Journaling in Craft

Here’s what I learned after thirty consecutive days of journal writing in Craft:

Performance

I was concerned that Craft might lose its pep with several thousand journal entries spanning more than a million words added to its data banks, yet performance remained snappy. Search results were near-instantaneous, and syncing updates between the Mac and iPad were as fast as ever.

Security

Craft’s syncing system does not provide end-to-end encryption like Day One. I wasn’t very concerned about security or encryption for my reading notes. But my private journal? That’s a different story. In the end, I decided to accept the security risk for the promise of new insights and writing productivity garnered by a connected journal.

Writing Experience

I found the writing experience in Craft to be mostly pleasing. I hid the navigation sidebar with a keyboard command (CMD-) to provide a clean, distraction-free writing environment. Numbered lists, bullet lists, pictures, and even Apple Pencil drawings were easy to add. I enjoyed moving entire paragraphs around in my entry with just my index finger. But, there were some annoyances. Craft doesn’t permit a change to its default font or font size. I usually write in my journal before bed. In Day One, I scale up the font to make it easier on my tired eyes. In Craft, I found myself straining a bit when I wrote at the end of the day, wishing I could make that font a little easier to see. And while I generally don’t spend too much time editing my journal writing, I found Craft’s Undo capability tedious. While Day One will quickly erase an entire sentence with just a couple of CTL-Z commands, Craft insists on undoing each character, one by one, even to the point of redoing and undoing typos. It’s a small thing, but enough to pull me out of the writing trance when it happened, and something that more mature writing apps handle better. But, these are minor complaints. The overall writing experience in Craft was positive.

Search

With my journal now part of Craft, I could finally sift through decades of personal writing for insights to link to my knowledge system. Yet, I soon discovered that searching Craft with all those journal entries had limitations. Before this, a CMD-O search in Craft usually produced interesting and relevant results. Now with thousands of rambling journal entries thrown in, a search wasn’t as reliable or valuable. For instance, a CMD-O search in Craft for the word fatherhood produced a list of 30 randomly ordered documents. The same search in Day One found 65 entries, ordered properly by date. I learned Craft enforces a hard limit of 30 documents using this on-the-fly search method, though it’s unclear how it decides which to present. Craft’s dedicated search pane found all 65 fatherhood journal entries, but reviewing the search results was cumbersome. The journal entries were again presented in a random order, and the scroll bar persistently leaped back to the top of the list when I clicked on an entry, losing my place. This made a review of a long list of search results very challenging.

Further, Craft’s search functionality is ham-stringed by its reliance on text blocks. For example, If you search for a journal entry with the words fatherhood and marriage, Craft will only find documents where the words appear in the same paragraph. If the search words appear in different paragraphs of the same document, Craft won’t find it. Day One had no such limitation.

Dates

Dates are the universal building blocks of every journal. Since Craft is primarily a note-taking app, it doesn’t provide much context on the date something is added to the system. This can make finding entries for a particular day, week, or month more challenging. I partially solved this by appending the date to the journal entry’s title, so I can at least view the date as I scroll through a list of entries. But, there’s no easy way to zoom to a particular time period in Craft like you can with Day One.

Linking Struggles

Connecting thoughts through the power of two-way links was one of the main reasons I wanted to try Craft as a journaling tool. Surprisingly, I struggled to apply links when I journaled, and when I did, they served as a work-around to apply a tag vs. a legitimate link. This troubled me since creating these links comes so easily when I’m writing and curating reading notes. It seems my mental mode when I write in my journal doesn’t lend itself to self-editing or analytical reasoning. I must journal from a whole different side of my brain, favoring feelings, vague intuitions and dreams over links and connections and knowledge building. The writing fizzled any time I stopped to scan for potential links as I journaled. This happened again and again.

The Return to Day One

After a month of journal writing in Craft, I realized the truth. My journal isn’t meant to be poked or prodded, linked, or back-linked. For me, the act of writing every day in a journal is therapy; writing how I feel in the moment keeps me healthy and balanced. My attempt to elevate the process in Craft only diminished the meditative value of the journal writing, while producing little in the way of new connected insights. Not only that, but my system of carefully curated wisdom in Craft felt swamped by a tidal wave of mostly unremarkable and repeated personal observations, which obscured much more than it uncovered.

Before importing my journals, everything in Craft had been vetted and polished to contribute to my understanding of the world and what it means to be human. The source of these insights was gleaned from other writers’ books, but each note was carefully distilled and refined in a personal way that is meaningful to me. While my journals are comprised of all my own words and heart-felt reflections, they’re raw and meandering and filled with empty calories, which simply aren’t suitable for the wisdom I collect inside Craft.

So, my journaling experiment ended with a return to Day One, keeping Craft apart and sanctified as my knowledge system.

Back in Day One, I felt a new appreciation for the soft, cozy feeling the app offers the constant journaler: the writing prompt that stirs your imagination as you open the app; the time travel of reading your past “On This Day” entries that transports you back ten, twenty, even thirty years ago; the comfort and security of end to end encryption of my most private thoughts; the easy swiping through the past week’s entries to connect you to the story arc of your life; and maybe most important: that precious altered state you enter as you write for just yourself without any expectations or demands … but honesty.

This experiment may not have resulted in any new Emersonian journal insights, but it did ultimately lead me to a better way to leverage my journal writing in Craft. As part of my weekly review, I now take some quiet time with the analytical side of my brain to reread the previous week’s journal entries for insights and ideas that add something meaningful to my knowledge system in Craft. It’s the perfect way to maintain the therapy of my journal process while leveraging the best of my thinking in Craft. And since my lifetime of journal writing resides digitally in Day One, I’m just a couple clicks away from discovering those lost insights lurking inside this vault of my life’s experiences and musings.


Afterward: How to Export Day One to Craft

Here are the steps I took to export over 3,200 Day One journal entries and 700 embedded photos to Craft. I used the Bear and Hazel apps to help me in the process.

  1. In Day One, I used the “Export … JSON” function to export all journal entries.
  2. In Bear, I deleted any notes in the library, emptied the trash, and restarted the app.
  3. I imported the Day One JSON file into Bear.
  4. In Bear, I used the “Export as Markdown” function with “export attachments” checked. Craft limits each import of markdown notes to 2,000. To get the linked images to come across, you need to make sure your Bear export falls below this limit. In Bear, I selected about 1,500 entries and saved the export into an empty folder on the desktop. I called it Bear 1.
  5. I repeated the process for the next 1,500 entries and again for the remaining entries. Folders Bear 1, Bear 2, and Bear 3 were now populated with markdown text files and folders of images and PDFs.
  6. If my original Day One entry didn’t have a title, it used the first paragraph of the entry as its title in Craft, which was too long. I wanted to shorten that to a consistently formatted date. If it did have a title, I wanted to append a consistently formatted date to that title. I created a few simple rules in the excellent Hazel app to remedy this.
  7. In Craft, I imported the contents of the Bear 1 folder using the “Markdown files” option. This added the first batch of journal entries to a newly created folder called Bear 1 inside another newly created folder called Imported Notes. This is important: I waited until the process concluded, and Craft was done syncing. In my case, this took about 15 minutes with my slow internet connection. If you move the entries out of the import folder before the sync is completed, many of the images in your entries won’t sync.
  8. I repeated step #7 for Bear 2 and Bear 3 folders (this only applies if you have more than 2,000 entries in Day One). Again, I waited for each to fully sync before proceeding. I tested the sync on an iPad to see all the entries (and images) to confirm everything was working.
  9. I moved the entries out of the Bear 1-2-3 folders into a Journal folder at the highest level in Craft. To do this, I had to select all the entries and keep scrolling down to the bottom of the window repeatedly to make sure I got them all.
  10. For new entries written in Craft, I used the “/Date Today” keyboard command to append the current date to the end of the title to match the format used in the above Hazel rules.

Read Better with Craft and Readwise

Have you ever run across a book you know you’ve read but can’t recall much about it? Or, come across a passage in a book while you were reading that seemed important — something you knew you could use at some point in the future — but didn’t know where or how to save it so you could find it again?

Too often, I’ll pick up a book I’ve read just a few years back and feel a familiar sense of despair. I may have spent hours of study at the time, but it’s already become a blur. And how many hours of my life have I spent searching for something I read but can’t find?

For someone who invests a thousand hours a year reading, this kind of poor knowledge return always bothered me. I needed a simple system to make better use of the time I spent reading, but didn’t distract or pull me away from the flow of reading itself.

I’m pleased to share that two innovative apps — Craft and Readwise — have finally become that system for me. Both require a paid subscription, and one works only with Apple devices, so they aren’t for everyone. Yet, using these two apps has improved my reading retention, and perhaps more importantly, unlocked a way for me to consistently integrate what I read into a broader system of curated thought and wisdom.

What follows are the methods I employ in the reading system across three key activities:

(1) Capturing notes and quotes from my reading;

(2) Curating what I’ve captured inside my note-taking system; and

(3) Compounding the knowledge and insights I’ve gleaned with daily reviews and Zettelkasten-style linking.

There are a few caveats I’ll share before diving in. First, these workflows only apply to books I actively read with an alert mind and a notebook and pen nearby. The books I read for pleasure at night before bed don’t see much action in this system. Second, we’re in the early innings of a golden era of note-taking and reading technologies. The tools and techniques I’m using in early 2022 will continue to evolve as new capabilities and services emerge. And finally, I have no financial incentives or affiliations with Readwise, Craft or any other service or product mentioned in this post.

Phase I — Capturing

Capturing insights from my reading is the first phase of my system. I’ve learned that to remember and learn from what I read, I need to take notes. This part of the system is decidedly old school. If I’m reading an actual book, I almost always have a pen in my hand to mark passages or scribble notes in the margins. If I’m reading on Kindle, I highlight passages with my finger, but jot notes down on paper, usually in a Field Notes notebook. I’ve gotten in the habit of summarizing the main points of what I’ve just read to help forge a mental lock on the material. Often, in the process of putting something in my own words, I stumble upon some new insight I hadn’t comprehended at first blush. I also occasionally reflect on what I’m reading in my journal.

I use Readwise to import highlights and annotations from Kindle ebooks and online articles using the Pocket read-it-later app. Readwise is a subscription service that gathers and resurfaces highlights and annotations from books and periodicals. Readwise integrates with almost 20 reading sources. Kindle and Pocket highlights sync to Readwise automatically, so I don’t have to think about it while I read.

Capturing quotes from printed books is a Readwise superpower. The OCR engine inside the Readwise app is fantastic. Snap a picture of the page with your iPhone, pick the beginning and end of the highlight with your finger, tap the book (it remembers what you’re reading), and type in an optional page number. If you want to include a note with the highlight, tap the record button and add it with your voice. I batch my capture of highlights in chunks, and each takes about 20 seconds to process. When finished, all those highlights and notes are now magically part of Readwise.

Capturing a highlight from a printed book in Readwise is fast and accurate.

Besides books, I read a lot of online articles and blog posts, but I resist the urge to read these on the fly. Instead, I save them into Pocket and take time on the weekend to read through them all at once. I enjoy the reading experience on Pocket’s iPad app, and it’s a simple thing to add articles, even those behind paywalls. The free version of Pocket allows up to three highlights which is sufficient for most pieces. Highlights I make in Pocket flow automatically into Readwise.

Once a week, I archive the best Pocket articles into DevonThink for future reference. DevonThink is a tremendously powerful document storage app that I use to keep various personal and professional files, including the entire ship maintenance system for our trawler, MV Indiscretion. DevonThink can save Pocket articles as bookmarks, web archives, PDFs, Markdown, or plain text, and I can easily link to them from other apps (like Craft). I love having an established workflow for online articles. Nothing important I read falls through the cracks.

Reading system flow diagram

Phase II — Curating

The process shifts from Readwise to the Craft app in the curation phase. Craft is a markdown note-taking app with powerful linking capabilities that I adopted about a year ago for all my reading notes. You can read more about why I love Craft here.

When I finish a book or article, I create a new literature note in Craft that will ultimately include my notes, favorite highlights, and a personal review of what I’ve read. I keep a folder of reading templates in Craft to bring consistency and completeness to the process. I have templates for fiction, non-fiction, essays, and articles. For example, my fiction template has a section for the plot, characters, key themes, questions I had during my reading, favorite quotes, and my overall review of the book.

With the literature note now created in Craft, I copy in the highlights and annotations from Readwise with its custom markdown export function. Some note-taking apps like Roam or Obsidian can be integrated directly with Readwise, but this really isn’t necessary. I like having control over when I bring in my reading highlights, which isn’t any more complicated than a simple copy and paste.

Next, I copy in my handwritten notes from the margins of the book or Field Notes. I’ll flip through my journal in Day One and copy in relevant passages I wrote during my reading.

At this point in the process, the literature note is quite a jumble of highlights, journal entry excerpts, and note fragments. I sort through it all and try to bring forth order. Luckily, it’s simple to rearrange blocks of text in Craft, so I move things into proper sections and rewrite or expand on my notes. I summarize the main ideas of the book and any takeaways.

Finally, I try to think more broadly about how what I’ve read connects to other books or concepts in my reading system. This is where links come in.

Linking is a Craft mainstay. Type the @ symbol in a note, and you can create links to other notes within Craft. I add links at the block level from inside the book note to related permanent notes (or other book notes). Block-level links are truly a Craft superpower. Many Zettelkasten proponents insist on creating stand-along “atomic notes” to get the true benefit of a linked note system. I think Craft’s block-linking capabilities do a better job of preserving the continuity and context of the literature note, while producing excellent backlink references inside the destination note. Whether you use atomic notes or block-level links from inside your notes, this connection between notes serves as the backbone of a knowledge system that generates an ever-growing convergence of insights.

An example of a permanent note in Craft.

Phase III — Compounding

This brings me to my system’s final and most valuable phase: the compounding of knowledge and wisdom from my reading. I compare this phase to the compounding of interest on your retirement savings. The more you save, the faster it seems to grow, until eventually, the interest outpaces the principal. Midway through this past year, I reached that crossover point in Craft when the connections between books, world views, concepts, themes, and ideas began forming at an accelerating rate.

There are three primary methods I use to promote this knowledge compounding effect: (1) creating or updating permanent notes of ideas or concepts that run through my reading; (2) daily Readwise reviews; and (3) open-ended exploration of the system, which I affectionately call my Craft Time.

Permanent Notes

In my system, permanent notes are concepts, scientific principles, philosophical beliefs, genres, human conditions, cultural practices, etc. — thoughts or ideas that span across the books I read. An eclectic list of examples: Field Theory, Tides, Origins of Religion, Sobriety, Hindsight Bias, and Memoirs. I currently have 130 permanent notes in my system, yet I still frequently encounter new themes or concepts in my reading that don’t exist in Craft. If I think it’s worthwhile, I’ll add the link anyway, which creates a new note in Craft’s Inbox. Later, I’ll open the note and bring it to life as a proper permanent note. This almost always starts with a CMD-O search through my system for any related notes that might deserve a link.

Searching a well-populated Craft database of your reading notes and inner thoughts invites serendipity and wonder. The search results are near instantaneous and displayed in a sensible order — documents with the search term in the title first, blocks next — with a preview of each result.

A CMD-O search in Craft always yields interesting results ...

In the early days of using Craft, these searches were ho-hum. But now, after curating hundreds and hundreds of interconnected notes, searches frequently yield something unexpected, insightful. With a few keystrokes, I discover connections to similar ideas in other books I’ve read in the past; call it my personal Wikipedia, written in partnership with the authors I most admire, just for me. How else would I connect Cheryl Strayed’s appreciation of solitude while hiking the Pacific Coast Trail with Susan Orlean’s happy time in a crowded public library or Maria Popova’s sanctuary within the pages of her private diary?

I usually discover other books or notes that relate directly or indirectly, and I add the appropriate links to these newborn permanent notes. I almost always sigh to myself at this point. How many books have I read over the past three decades that touched on this theme that are now gone forever from my mind because I didn’t have Craft?

Finally, I’ll add the permanent note to my master index, known in PKM circles as as Map of Content. But rarely is this the end of the note’s evolution and growth. Once a note enters Craft — and I suspect also my subconscious — I find myself adding more and more references and links to related content in fits and starts over time.

Daily Readwise Reviews

One of the benefits of being a Readwise subscriber is the daily review of a random selection of your reading highlights. These arrive by email or inside the app itself and follow a pattern of spaced repetition to help you improve retention. You can set how many highlights you want to review each day and create themed reviews that pull from selected books or tags. I was an early adopter of the Kindle e-reader, so I’m able to revisit a veritable treasure trove of highlights I captured years and years ago.

These morning reviews provide an opportunity to think deeply about a handful of highlights from a population of more than a thousand I’ve captured. For each one, I ask myself a series of questions. Why does this highlight resonate with me? Does it support something else in my reading system? Could I write something of my own that stems from this quote?

These review sessions almost always lead me into Craft to edit a particular permanent note, add a new link from that day’s highlight, or record a new writing idea or topic (which I also keep in Craft). It’s a rare day that I don’t add or revise my reading notes after a Readwise review.

Daily Readwise review examples on iPhone

Craft Time

I’ll call out my third way of compounding knowledge as simply Craft Time. More and more, I feel drawn to explore and broaden my reading notes, almost like seeking the dopamine hit from social media apps like Facebook or Twitter. Yet, here, the content is uniquely tailored to me, and in a sense, constantly growing and changing as I add and connect notes and ideas. Instead of refreshing an endless Facebook feed, I am exploring pathways of thought that are at once familiar but also entirely novel to me.

In practice, this involves reviewing and adding links between meaningful passages of books and articles to appropriate themes; developing notes for new themes or ideas; and most recently, breaking apart and propagating notes that have grown too large. Sometimes, my Craft Time is simply open-ended discovery. Scanning the backlinks from my notes on Friendship, Regret, Mortality, Meaning of Life, or Time can transport me mentally — sometimes quite spiritually — to a place I would be hard-pressed to find another way.

I recently read Annie Dillard’s Pilgrim at Tinker Creek. I read this twenty years ago, and it was one of those books that had fallen into that blurry category of non-remembering. This second reading mesmerized me with its beautiful observations of the natural world set alongside a backdrop of religion and philosophy. Before long, I was comparing Dillard’s breathtaking assessment of the vastness of the universe with similar musings from Blaise Pascal and Neil deGrasse Tyson. It’s like this reading system of mine has unlocked something in my brain that now permits me — no, implores me — to step outside the single book and see patterns and themes across books, across genres of literature, across vast swaths of science and philosophy.

In Mortimer Adler’s How to Read a Book, he describes the most advanced and challenging reading level — Syntopical Reading — as reading many books on the same subject and studying the differences and similarities in themes, ideas, arguments, and styles. I can’t say I often live up to Mr. Adler’s standards, but I think this system in Craft approaches his syntopical ideal with its blossoming cross-reference links and aha! insights that emerge from my time with it.

Is It Worth It?

Cost will be an issue for anyone considering a reading system like this. Between Readwise and Craft, I’m shelling out $150 per year in subscription fees. That might seem like a hefty outlay for reading, given there are free or less expensive options. For example, Readwise offers Bookcision, a tool that allows you to download properly formatted Kindle highlights for free. Obsidian, a popular PKM app, offers a capable free tier and supports at least one free community plug-in to download Kindle highlights.

While I could cobble together a free solution, it’s worth it for me to pay for a seamless experience. For me, the benefits accrue in three ways:

  1. More focus, less distraction. Both Readwise and Craft offer an attractive, uncluttered design and user interface that promotes thinking over futzing with software settings. Focus is hard enough to come by these days, and I appreciate the calming interface these apps use in elevating my book highlights and notes. How do you put a price tag on sustained concentration?
  2. Nothing slips through the cracks. No matter what or how I read, Readwise captures my highlights without thinking about it. While Bookcision or an Obsidian plug-in might work fine for Kindle highlights, what about printed books? Or web articles? I could process these manually with an iPhone scanner, copy and paste them into the proper text file, and then return to my reading. But for me, that’s the whole point of having a reading system. I can focus on the text without the worrying distraction of how I’m going to act on what I’m reading.
  3. Higher return on investment. In the course of a year, I’ll read around 60 books and many hundreds of articles and essays. At typical adult reading speeds, this means I spend at least 1,000 hours each year reading. In addition, I spend about $1,000 a year on books and news subscriptions. Between time and money, my investment in reading is considerable. For me, spending a little on tools to ensure I get a great return on that investment is a no-brainer. At 15 cents per reading hour, I assure you that I am getting a good return on Readwise and Craft.

A Wish List

While I am pleased with this system, there are few things that I hope will improve in the future:

  1. Kobo Support in Readwise. I read about half my books on Kindle, but am very interested in switching to the Kobo e-reader to lessen my reliance on Amazon as a company, and enjoy a better reading experience when borrowing books through Libby. Readwise doesn’t yet provide a way to import reading highlights and notes from Kobo, so I’m staying put with Kindle until that functionality exists.
  2. Tighter Readwise and Craft Integration. I’m using a custom markdown export tool from Readwise to bring my highlights to Craft, but it requires the use of a web browser and text editor to make the transfer. having a built-in integration with Craft or a way to copy the highlights out of the Readwise app itself would be an improvement.
  3. A Better Solution for Reading Articles. Pocket works for my article reading, but there are some downsides. The free version limits you to just three highlights, and you’re not able to add any notes to what you’ve highlighted. Readwise has announced their own read-it-later app called Reader which I’m told will provide a better overall reading experience. I’ll be very curious to try this out when it’s eventually released.

Smarter Reading

I can’t help but feel both excited and wistful about the state of reading today. As a lifelong bookworm, I am thrilled that technologies have emerged to take reading retention and knowledge assimilation to new levels. I am now more inclined to tackle difficult books because I have a method to mine and refine their gems of wisdom.

But, part of me laments the fact that these technologies didn’t exist when I was younger. I cannot even begin to imagine the level of knowledge a system like this would yield after thirty years of continuous use. While I read mainly for self-improvement and entertainment, can you imagine the power of a reading system like this for a doctoral candidate writing a thesis? Or a writer collecting research for a book?

They say the best time to plant a tree was twenty years ago. The next best time is right now. There’s never been a better time to become smarter in how you read.

Questions about this reading system with Craft and Readwise? Leave me a note in the comment section below.

Keep the Change

As I walked through the throng of travelers at LAX recently on my way to a flight that would be canceled the minute I got to the gate, I reflected on how change is the only real constant in life. In less than a week, I found myself hurrying through crowded airports in Seattle, Denver and Los Angeles (fun fact: these three airports accounted for 60% of all holiday flight cancelations). From Denver, I drove 1,200 miles to Los Angeles in a Jeep with Connor and his ten-month-old puppy, listening to baseball podcasts (yes, that's a thing) through Colorado and New Mexico. The music changed to hip hop in Arizona, and I felt nostalgic for the podcasts. I paid nearly $7 per gallon for gas in California and felt nostalgic for Arizona. We survived freeway driving in the rain as we neared Los Angeles with Connor relying on his 19-year-old reflexes -- or the Force -- to weave in and out of 80-mph traffic.

Mallory hosted us at her beautiful apartment near Santa Monica. She's only lived there a few months but showed us around her bustling neighborhood like a native. I can't believe this young lady who grew up on an island of 10,000 is now so at ease in a city of four million. We picked up Lisa at LAX later that night in a downpour. And defying the promise of the song and our much-needed dose of Vitamin D, It really does rain in Southern California. Serious drenching rain, like the kind I used to see in the rain forest near Forks.

With the four of us together, we did the usual holiday stuff, but in a new way: last-minute Christmas shopping at an open-air mall in the pouring rain, Christmas Eve ramen, a marathon Monopoly game made longer by Lisa's insistence on gifting money to her children and thereby violating the very premise of the game (!), a requisite walk through Marina del Rey to gawk at boats, and Christmas Day with extended family in Costa Mesa. Here I got to meet the next generation of little ones -- Jackson, Avery and Effie -- and as I helped them play with their Christmas toys, I couldn't shake the feeling that time had somehow looped back on itself, and I was a new dad, and Mallory and Connor were little again, and that life stood still.

For many years, our holidays repeated a predictable pattern at our island home. The same setting, the same meals, the same corner with the same kind of Christmas tree, the same wintry night on the same porch, looking out at the night sky and sea. Yet, life is forever changing, renewing, and reshaping. As Alan Watts said, "the only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance." Long-standing traditions can be a comfort, but on this family holiday, with its unexpected detours and moments of sheer bliss, I learned a new kind of music. And it's time to dance.

The Craft App —A Year of Magical Linking

It’s been a year since I adopted Craft as my primary research and note-taking app. I shared my impressions of Craft early on, but I thought I would provide an update on how I’m using the software and why, with all the other choices available in the personal knowledge management (PKM) space, I’m still all-in with Craft.

I use Craft as a Zettelkasten-style note-taking system fed by a healthy reading habit. I take notes on things that interest me so that I might use this knowledge to make better decisions and inform my own writing. Before Craft, these notes were scattered across note cards, journals, and the margins of books — locked away and seldom consulted. I had this uneasy feeling that I was wasting my time taking notes at all. But no longer. Over the year, the notes I created inside Craft have taken on a life of their own, approaching that mythic “second brain” potential. It took a while to reach critical mass, but I find that the time I spend — writing notes, linking notes, and exploring connections — now yields some of my most thoughtful and creative work.

So, yeah: I love Craft. The designers have created and continue to evolve an iPad-first thinking tool that enables me to focus on my ideas and connected thoughts without unnecessary complexity or clutter. It matches my sense of design sensibilities and interface delight; it works the way I think. With the announcement of Craft 2.0 and Craft X, I am more excited than ever about the future of this fantastic app.

In part, my enthusiasm for Craft stems from a short dalliance with Obsidian, another popular PKM app. I spent a few weeks in this alternate note-taking universe when ReadWise released its official plug-in for Obsidian. ReadWise is a service that gathers and resurfaces highlights and annotations from books and periodicals, scratching a particular itch for serious readers. Obsidian has won over many fans with its powerful linking tools on top of plain text files, and this new superpower of syncing ReadWise highlights automatically was too tempting not to try out. I soon learned that Obsidian wouldn’t work for me, and despite the automation with ReadWise, I hurried back to my beloved Craft. But in the process, I learned what matters most to me in using these knowledge and thinking tools that I thought would be useful to share with others who might be thinking about diving into the PKM world.

Six Reasons I Love Craft

1. Design

Craft is beautiful, drawing praise from just about everyone who tries it. The text spacing, the font choice, the intuitive user interface, the colors, and even the app icon options point to a gifted visionary with an intense focus on a near-perfect balance of form and function. Craft reminds me of the best of Apple’s hardware and software designs. But this beauty goes beyond appearance. Dragging a block or a note somewhere in the app (or outside of it) does exactly what you expect it should. Markdown text commands fly from my fingers and transform before my eyes into perfectly formatted text — no arcane symbols or HTML code to disrupt my thinking, no toggle between edit and preview mode to confuse me. My notes appear consistently polished, not janky with placeholder brackets, caret symbols, or exclamation marks. Sync is flawless. Intuitive keyboard shortcuts and slash commands keep my hands on the keyboard and my thoughts flowing without having to think; now, how again do you link to a block in another note? With other apps and Obsidian, in particular, the design and user interface feel like glaring distractions that interrupt flow. With Craft, everything on screen is there for a good purpose, nothing more. The interface fades into the background as I work, precisely what I want in a thinking tool like this.

  Most people make the mistake of thinking design is what it looks like. People think it’s this veneer — that the designers are handed this box and told, ‘make it look good!’ That’s not what we think design is. It’s not just what it looks like and feels like. Design is how it works.

— Steve Jobs 1

2. iPad-first

Since I use an iPad Pro for almost all my work, I need a platform without mobile compromises. Craft was designed for iPad first, and it truly feels that way with no limits in functionality or power. It actually took longer for the Mac app to gain all the iPad features, which is backward from most developed software (Craft’s Mac app just won Apple’s 2021 software of the year award, so I guess it caught up!).

In contrast, Obsidian’s mobile offerings launched late and are still hobbled by functionality gaps and far too many compromises for power use. During my time with Obsidian, I frequently pulled out my old MacBook Pro to do things, which felt jarring in my iPad-centric world.

3. Sharing and collaboration

Craft includes excellent sharing options to other formats: a nicely formatted email, PDF, Microsoft Word, Markdown, and Textbundle, which allows a complete export of your database to other apps like Bear or Obsidian. In addition, notes can be shared between apps like Ulysses, Day One, DevonThink, and Things. Craft allows seamless drag and drop between apps. On the iPad, I often have Ulysses and Craft open in split-screen mode to review my notes and drag over blocks of text to incorporate as I write. Inserting an image into a note from Photos or the web works equally well. It interacts with these other apps in a consistent, predictable way, allowing me to focus on the content. I can share notes with colleagues through a secret link or even publish whole sections of my notes to the web, rendered with all the style and interactivity of the app itself.

4. Innovation

In the past six months, Craft released an astounding 25 updates to the app. New features include a calendar function, integrated daily notes, tables, inline equations, local file storage, expanded app customization preferences, image and PDF annotation, Shortcuts functionality, Markdown export improvements, and significant app performance boosts. Perhaps the most exciting innovation is still to come with Craft X, an open-source plug-in platform that developers can use to create custom functionality within Craft. A ReadWise plug-in is already in testing, and the roadmap suggests we might see features like WordPress publishing, automated templates, and other workflow automation soon. The pace of innovation at Craft is astonishing.

5. Platform confidence

Company stability and sustainability are factors to consider before investing time and money in a product or service. Craft and Obsidian are roughly the same age, so comparing their business strategy for growth is instructive. Craft avoided the freemium model and enforced a subscription fee from the beginning, followed by a sizable round of venture capital to expand the team and fund product development. Between this recurring subscription revenue and the capital raise, cash flow should not be a top concern at Craft. In contrast, Obsidian relies on its two founders for software development and capital. The vast majority of users pay nothing for Obsidian, which puts pressure on the long-term sustainability of the business. Obsidian recently doubled the rates for their optional syncing and publishing services to improve cash flow. Everything else being equal, I would bet on the company with a sustainable business model, capital, and that financial metric that eludes so many startups: positive cash flow.

6. Future proof

One of the raps against Craft is its proprietary database, where it stores your notes. This database structure enables all of the amazing functionality and power of the app, but should Craft go out of business, all your information could technically vanish. In contrast, Obsidian stores your notes locally in plain text, which should always be accessible in the future. I’ve lost access to my share of old word-processing documents due to unsupported file formats, so I had a chance to test Craft’s export capabilities when I moved my notes to Obsidian and back again. The results surprised me.

Craft to Obsidian. The steps to export your Craft data really couldn’t be more straightforward. Select all your notes and use the export to Markdown function. This creates a nested folder of all your notes in Markdown text format alongside images, PDFs, or other files stored in Craft. Next, open the folder as a vault in Obsidian. That’s it. Your folder structure from Craft carries over to Obsidian. The links between documents, even links to specific blocks within a document, come through perfectly. The export of 2,000 notes took under a minute.

Obsidian to Craft. The process of getting my notes back out of Obsidian was surprisingly tricky. While notes in Obsidian are simple Markdown text files, maintaining the critical links between note files, images, and other embedded files is complicated without a proper export function (which Obsidian lacks). Thanks to a tip from Curtis McHale, I used Bear, a competing notes app, to import my notes from Obsidian. Since Bear doesn’t recognize folders, I had to consolidate all my notes from a dozen folders in Obsidian to one catch-all folder to avoid losing links. Bear was able to import all my notes, complete with links between notes, images, and PDFs, and then export them in a format that worked fine for Craft. Once in Craft, I had to refile all my notes back into my folder scheme, which took some time. For software that touts itself as the ultimate in future-proofing, I honestly didn’t expect it would be such a hassle to move my information back to Craft. Bear gets high marks here for serving as the go-between, but it seems like a pretty big gap for Obsidian not to have a proper export function.

Despite the time it took to retrieve my files from Obsidian, I discovered how easy it was to export my information from Craft, which isn’t something you usually figure out until it becomes a critical necessity. I now have very little hesitation with trusting my notes to the Craft with its top-notch export capabilities.

Is Craft for You?

I am sold on Craft as my knowledge tool, but that doesn’t mean it’s perfect or necessarily suitable for everyone. Obsidian is popular for good reason. It’s free for most users and available on more platforms, like Windows and Android. Secure encryption of your notes is possible with its optional sync service. It provides more powerful back-link capabilities and unlinked mentions, and a graph view of your linked notes that doesn’t exist in Craft. While the Obsidian interface doesn’t appeal to me, direct manipulation of Markdown and HTML code is the preferred way to write and think for many, particularly programmers. And, because it’s so easy to export my Craft data, I’m keeping Obsidian around for times when I want to dig deeper into unlinked mentions or mine insights from the notes graph.

In Atomic Habits, James Clear cautions about confusing motion with action when getting things done. Motion represents all those things we do before getting down to work. Thinking about it, planning, organizing your desk, making lists, selecting tools, etc. Action is doing the work itself. Since the work is often difficult and draining, it’s tempting to slip into the trap of motion, and switching software tools, like my two-week foray with Obsidian, is the very epitome of motion.

So, my advice is to pick a tool that feels right to you and stick with it. After all, the real value of these tools stems from the thoughts and connections you bring to it, which takes time and critical mass to yield any lasting benefits. After my year with Craft, it feels like we’re both just getting started.

Questions about Craft? Leave a note in the comment section below.

  1. Quoted by Ken Kocienda in his book Creative Selection. Page 187.

The Gales of November

We’re in the middle of a wet, windy month here in the Pacific Northwest. A weather phenomenon known as a “bomb cyclone” brought sustained winds of 30 knots and gusts up to 50 knots earlier this month. Since then, successive weather systems, aptly called atmospheric rivers, have pummeled Puget Sound, bringing rain and high winds almost every day. Today is no exception: a new storm has knocked out power to our entire island, so we’ve added the steady hum of our noisy generator to the whistling of 40-knot winds and the percussion of rain strafing the windows.

It is said a mariner’s plans are written in sand at low tide. We’ve already canceled two trips because of deteriorating weather this month. A friend of ours, who rode out the cyclone on his boat up in the San Juan Islands, teased me when I mentioned our change of plans.

“You’re in a Nordhavn! That boat can handle anything,” he chuckled.

He’s right. Nordhavn trawlers are built for heavy weather, with many open ocean crossings under their collective keels. I didn’t cancel our plans because of any limitations of the boat. It’s crew discomfort I fret about.

I recall a conversation about this with the skipper of Epoch, a Nordhavn 47. Scott had graciously welcomed us aboard, back when we were first looking at trawlers, and we enjoyed our first glimpse of one of these beautiful yachts. He shared his plans of taking Epoch down the coast to Mexico and beyond (he and Abby are now cruising the Eastern Seaboard aboard Orenda, a Nordhavn 55). We commended Scott on his selection of such a seaworthy vessel, capable of handling just about any sea conditions.

“I hope to never find myself in the really bad stuff,” he said. “If I do, it means I screwed up somewhere in my planning.”

I like Scott’s way of thinking. It’s nice to have the rough weather capabilities of an ocean-going trawler — just in case — along the lines of buying life insurance. I hope not to require that anytime soon either.

Steady As She Goes

While I do my best to avoid heavy weather, I find I enjoy myself when we’re in the thick of it. I like the feeling of a heavy sea, the sounds of various things shifting in the lurch of a wave, stomach muscles tensing from the pitching fore and aft, the fountains of spray and green water that flood the foredeck ahead of the Portuguese Bridge. I feel especially fond of our little ship as she slides through the whipped-up waves and wind, keeping us safe and warm inside the pilothouse.

Indiscretion underway in a fresh gale

 

I’ve been caught with too much sail up during squalls in our sailboats, and the feeling then was different: a mix of adrenalin-fueled fear and exultation, my feet braced against the coaming as the boat heeled with the gusts to an astonishing angle and the rig groaned under the pressure of the wind. Sailing seven miles an hour in a gale feels like a high speed car chase on the freeway.

Our watery world on the trawler is mostly insulated from the extremes of wind and waves. Without gauges to inform me, it’s hard to tell if the wind is blowing fifteen knots or thirty. Yet, docking this trawler in high winds does bring me squarely into the present moment. I move up to the flybridge for these occasions for better visibility while Lisa takes her position in the cockpit at the far stern of the boat to handle dock lines. We talk through our Eartec headsets, but I feel a world apart from her up here. I’m exposed to the wind and weather, which shakes me from any lethargy I might have felt in the cozy confines of the pilothouse. I scan the basic instruments on the flybridge dash: an electronic chart, water depth, boat speed, and wind speed, but from this elevated perch, I have all the data I need swirling around me: the height and shape of the waves, the boat’s progress through the water toward the approaching marina, the feel of the wind on my cheek.

Any uncertainty I harbored in trip planning or assessing forecasts vanishes. For 99% of my time aboard the trawler, I am as skeptical and doubting as Mr. Spock, always scanning for trouble. But put me at the helm during an approach to a windy dock, and I’m suddenly a brash Captain Kirk piloting the Enterprise through an uncharted nebula. In a life that’s usually ordered and controlled, docking in high wind brings a raw wildness, like driving down a mountain road in snow and ice with shoddy brakes. Anything can happen, often with onlookers. “Steady as she goes, Mr. Sulu,” I sometimes mutter as we close with the solidity of the windswept dock. Lisa laughs when she hears this on the headset, but it’s a nervous laugh.

Luckily, in our three years of trawler ownership, we’ve managed to avoid the docking mishaps my worrisome imagination had envisioned. Indiscretion’s bow and stern thrusters have saved the day a few times. Still, I’d much rather avoid the whole drama if at all possible. Hence our keen interest in weather forecasts.

Windy, the Great Sage of Wind Forecasts

I used to roll my eyes at the comically unreliable weather forecasts of the nightly news. That sure has changed. An explosion of meteorological observation data fed into sophisticated computer models has vastly improved the accuracy of weather predictions, making even long-range forecasts pretty insightful. We rely on the weather app Windy for our forecasting and trip planning and pay extra for its premium features for the more frequent updates and by-the-hour forecast granularity. It’s been well worth it.

As an example, Windy predicted 42 knots of wind would greet us on our planned arrival at a Nordhavn Rendezvous in Poulsbo last May. Yet, the event was still ten days away.

“How can they possibly predict anything that far in advance?” I scoffed when Lisa pointed out the forecast. “Let’s watch it. I’m sure it will change.”

Three days later, with the rendezvous now a week away, a wind advisory remained in effect: 42-44 knot gusts at the time we planned to arrive. The Poulsbo Windy forecast became our morning topic of conversation over coffee.

Windy was still predicting 40+ knot winds as we got within four days of the event, which was enough prognostication for me. I called the marina and changed our reservation to get there a day early to be safe.

We arrived at the lovely Poulsbo Marina in dead calm. We were the first of more than forty Nordhavn trawlers to attend this biggest-ever gathering. Backing a 46-foot trawler into a 30-foot slip can be interesting, so I was glad to perform this docking without dozens of more experienced trawler captains commenting on my technique from the quay.

We woke the next morning to a beautiful sunny day. Zero wind. Could Windy have got it wrong, we wondered?

Not a breath of wind stirred at 10 am. At noon, a little wind began to ripple the fairways of the marina. But by 2 pm, gale force winds out of the south arrived exactly as Windy had predicted. Indiscretion groaned at her dock lines in 40-knot gusts as we hustled from dock to dock, helping arriving boats get safely tied up. Landing a 100,000 pound trawler gives you a new perspective on the sheer weight of these beasts. You can shove all you want, but no amount of muscle is going to fend off a full displacement vessel pinned to a dock in a blow. A few boats in the anchorage drug their anchors that afternoon as gale-force winds tore through Liberty Bay. Only the heroics of the marina crew in a skiff prevented the collision of a dragging sailboat with a very expensive Nordhavn trawler on an end-tie of the dock.

It still astonishes me that a weather app predicted this gale a full ten days ahead of time. So much so that we now think of Windy as an essential member of the crew. We’ve encountered a few false positives when the high predicted gusts failed to materialize, but I can’t recall a time when we had high winds that Windy didn’t anticipate. I’m sure there are other excellent weather forecasting apps (we have friends who swear by PredictWind), and an iPhone app is no replacement for an experienced weather router for ocean passages, but I won’t sail anywhere these days without checking Windy first.

I Think I Got Cabin Fever

I’ve lived in the Pacific Northwest for most of my life, and yet I can’t remember a longer stretch of wet, stormy weather. We manage to get out and walk the dogs along our island trails during breaks in the rain, but it’s been a full month since we’ve gone anywhere by boat — our longest time on land in a long, long while. While we’ve remained in port, boating friends of ours have continued to ply these windswept waters without shipwreck or other calamity. Perhaps they carry on in blissful ignorance of the looming wind and weather. More likely, they know and don’t care. Ships weren’t made for safe harbors after all.

One of the benefits that comes with retirement is a greater sense of patience. We don’t have the same constraints that would otherwise force us into sailing in inclement weather because of rigid schedules, the bane of every mariner. Taking the dogs ashore three times a day in a rain-and-wave-soaked tender makes us both pause and reconsider. Do we really want to go out in this?

But maybe, just maybe, our fortunes are about to change. This morning’s forecast calls for two more days of high winds with a chance that things might settle down after that. The mere prospect of blue skies and calm seas lifts my spirit. With a decent weather window, we could head for the southern reaches of Puget Sound, or turn the bow north to enjoy the San Juan Islands in the off season. Feeling the thrum of that big Lugger engine beneath me and the gentle roll of a boat underway is the perfect antidote for this claustrophobic stretch of land-based life.

As Aristotle once counseled, “patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.” Let that please be true!

 

Grammarly, Ulysses and Lost Links

I’m a long-time subscriber of Grammarly, the subscription-based grammar checking and proofreading service. I’m the kind of writer that needs grammar and style checking. No matter how many times I review a draft, the round trip through Grammarly finds some sort of error. It’s tough to proofread your own writing, and incorporating this final check in my process has saved me from some otherwise mortifying bloopers. The cost of a premium Grammarly subscription feels low when compared to publishing articles with these dumb writing errors.

I use the writing app Ulysses for all my published writing. I love its distraction-free environment and its ability to publish directly to WordPress. Last year, Ulysses introduced a solid grammar and style checking tool of its own called Revision Mode. It’s a powerful proofreading tool, and I appreciate how convenient it is to check my text without leaving the app. But, at least for me, it’s not as comprehensive in its error-checking capabilities as Grammarly. When it was first released, I corrected drafts of my writing first in Ulysses with a follow-up check in Grammarly. Grammarly would always find additional mistakes that Ulysses missed. In addition, Grammarly points out wordy or unclear sentences and offers up alternative wording suggestions that are usually pretty good.

Grammarly doesn’t support the Markdown file format that Ulysses uses, so checking the text of a Ulysses document is done by copying and pasting between the apps. The problem with this approach is that any links to external sites get lost in this round-trip process.

I encountered this glitch recently after I publishing a blog post with a bunch of links to other websites. The links in the post-Grammarly document retained the appearance of a proper link with its blue underlined font, but clicking on any of them in the published article took you nowhere. The embedded link instructions were wiped clean. I had to hastily edit and republish the post once I discovered the error.

After this snafu, I contacted the support team at Ulysses and received the following guidance on how to send drafts to Grammarly and back without losing any data. I’m sharing here in case others might benefit from these instructions:

How to Preserve Links in the Round Trip between Ulysses and Grammarly:

When you copy text from Ulysses to Grammarly, perform a right-click › Copy as › Markdown. When you are done in Grammarly, copy the text there as would normally do, but then in Ulysses, right-click again › Paste from › Markdown (not Paste as...). Doing so will preserve any Markdown links in your Ulysses document.

I’ve tested this on both the Mac and iPad versions of Ulysses, and it works perfectly.

Fall Cruising on Hood Canal

The crew of Indiscretion achieved a matrimonial milestone this month — our 25th Wedding Anniversary. This is remarkable, not only because our marriage has lasted far longer than the statistical average, but also because our friends all expected this spur-of-the-moment marriage to dissolve within six months of our elopement in Greece. There had been a large quantity of Ouzo consumed the night before we wrote out marriage vows on a rocky outcropping on Skiathos, so even we wondered early on how this would all work out.

We decide to celebrate our anniversary at Alderbrook Resort and Spa on the southern end of Hood Canal. We could have driven to this beautiful resort from our home on Vashon Island in about an hour, but what would be the fun in that? Instead, we would travel there by boat, which requires voyaging about seven hours north to the entrance of Hood Canal, and then heading south for another seven hours. Such is life at seven knots.

On our way north, we stop for the night in Eagle Harbor on Bainbridge Island. With the cooler October weather, the crowds of boaters we encountered in the high season have vanished. We tie up to the city dock in Eagle Harbor, where we join just one other boat. By late afternoon, another six boats traveling together from Port Ludlow arrive, but there is still a couple of open spots on the dock. Ah, fall cruising!

From Eagle Harbor, we push on for Hood Canal. We consider stopping at Port Ludlow, a favorite waypoint of ours and conveniently located at the entrance to the canal, but the weather forecast for the following day predicted high winds, and we want to make more progress on such a fine, calm day.

In all our years of northwest boating, this is our first time cruising Hood Canal. Part of the reason is the limited clearance under the bridge itself. Roughly 50 feet of clearance exists on the bridge's eastern span, too close for comfort for our former sailboat’s 49-foot mast. The bridge does open for large ships, but it's a hassle. Besides the bridge, the glacial-carved canal itself is extremely deep — some 500 feet even close to shore — limiting the number of suitable anchorages along this pristine 50-mile stretch of waterway.

We pass under the Hood Canal bridge on a beautiful, calm fall day. My grandfather owned a home about a mile from the bridge, and I spent my summers there as a kid, beach-combing on that sandy beach, throwing rocks, sitting around driftwood campfires while my grandfather played the accordion, feeling like life went on forever. He was the captain of a small ferry boat that took two or three cars and a few passengers across the canal where the bridge is now, and I of course adored him. Most of the ideals of how life ought to be came from that man and those summers — moving our family to an island, spending all my free time messing around on boats, and the decision to buy this trawler — all can be traced back in some way to those years. It's funny how we attempt to recreate the carefree bliss of childhood.

After a full day of cruising, we pull into Pleasant Harbor, a popular destination about halfway down the canal. We arrive on a rising tide to navigate the narrow, shallow entrance and soon find ourselves inside a well-protected, glassy bay. We tie up to the state park just past the harbor entrance. The dock has plenty of room and is free for us since we have an annual pass with the State, but we discover there aren't any good walking trails for the dogs. We walk down the highway with cars speeding by closer than I like, but soon find ourselves on a lovely waterfront strand with a couple of large marinas that offer surprisingly ample guest moorage. We'll take advantage of this guest moorage or the nice anchorage at the southern end of the harbor on our next visit if only to avoid walking the highway. And we'll have to check out the inviting dockside pub and grill.

We get an early start the next morning as we depart Pleasant Harbor. A storm system is headed our way later in the day, bringing gale-force winds, and we want to be safely tied up to the dock in Alderbrook before it arrives.

We settle in for a three-hour cruise. The tide is ebbing, so we fight a half-knot current. There are few navigational hazards, no ferries or container ships to evade, and for whatever reason, hardly any logs or other flotsam to avoid. I know from childhood memory that this stretch of water can be treacherous during winter storms. I recall the picture glass window at my Grandfather's waterfront home bowing and flexing during the gusts of one particularly fierce Christmas Eve gale. But today, even with 20 knots of wind on the nose, the sea remains flat, docile.

The morning passes almost hypnotically; the steady hum of the big Lugger engine plays bass to the oldies playlist I have on low in the pilothouse — Beyond the Sea, You Belong to Me, Earth Angel. I sip hot coffee and enjoy the warmth of hydronic forced air heat as a mostly untouched shoreside with all the colors of fall slowly passing by the pilothouse windows.

After three years and thousands of miles under our keel, I am tuned to the boat's operation. My eyes flick to the instrument panel above my head every five minutes to check engine temperature and oil pressure. I glance at the radar screen to my right every minute or so for any new dots behind us that represent overtaking vessels (I see none the entire trip). Unconsciously, I feel for any change in resonance in the main engine and am alert for any new sounds. While off watch and napping, a change in engine RPMs brings me wide awake from the deepest sleep. Even after three years, my heart rate elevates when the coffee maker completes its brew cycle and emits three loud beeps.

We pull up to the sizeable end-tie dock at Alderbrook Resort after this quiet trip from Pleasant Harbor. The predicted wind hasn't yet arrived, and docking is uneventful. I imagine this place fills up in the summer months, but on this October Saturday, just two other vessels share the dock with us. We loll around on the boat after taking the dogs on a hike through a few of the many walking trails that span out from the report. We devour take-out burgers from the resort.

We see every kind of fall weather the Pacific Northwest can drum up on this trip, but our anniversary on Sunday morning brings calm seas and brilliant sunshine. We drop the tender in the water to make the three-mile trip to the Hood Canal Marina for brunch at the Hook and Fork Café (delicious!). We check out the resort grounds with its fire pits, heated pool, sauna and bar. Lisa enjoys a massage at the spa time while I chat it up with resort guests down the docks who are curious about this unique trawler.

We enjoy a nice dinner at the lodge on Sunday night. The staff find out it's our anniversary and seat us at a romantic table for two by the window. We can just make out Indiscretion in the gathering darkness. This is the way to celebrate an anniversary, I think. We skip the Ouzo but still count our blessings.

Reading Deeply

I spend a lot of time with my nose in a book. Last year, I read 61 books, and I'm on track to read that many again in 2021. Yet, as fast as I read, I can't seem to make a dent in my To-Be-Read pile. So many books, so little time. Sometimes it feels like I'm running on a treadmill with an ever-increasing speed.

Lately, I've been questioning whether this strategy of gulping down so many books is wise after all. When I scan down the list of the books I've read so far this year, a few stand out, but many are already a blur. I hover over a few on the list — wait, did I actually read that?

I'm pretty good at taking notes and highlighting favorite passages for most of the books I read. I subscribe to ReadWise, which provides a terrific way to resurface the best parts of past books I've enjoyed. That review process, along with the ability to automatically import those highlights into Obsidian, prompted me to switch my reading notes over from Craft. And while I do see benefits of these daily reviews and the curation of my reading notes and quotes into a personal knowledge management system, I still feel like I'm somehow not getting the most out of all these hours of reading.

Maybe reading more books isn't the right answer.

Ralph Waldo Emerson taught us to shoot for big goals with his advice to "aim above the mark to hit the mark," though I'm sure he didn't mean that for a reading quota. In Experience, he finds himself drawn to just "the commonest books, — the Bible, Homer, Dante, Shakespeare, and Milton." Gustave Flaubert seemed to agree: "What a scholar one might be if one knew well only some half a dozen books."

Could deeply reading (and rereading) a few classic books be better than my shotgun approach of inhaling a book or two every week?

In his Lectures on Literature, Vladimir Nabokov said: "Curiously enough, one cannot read a book: one can only reread it. A good reader, a major reader, an active and creative reader is a rereader." In a series of university lectures, Nabokov shared his take on a half-dozen classics from Marcel Proust, Jane Austen, Charles Dickens and others. I've read most of these, but after reviewing Nabokov's deep analysis of these books, I realized I had merely skated over the icy surface of these great works. I did not probe deep enough into the book's structure and writing techniques, did not discover, in Nabokov's words, that "shiver of artistic satisfaction" when a reader truly communes with the author.

Is this kind of deep, analytical reading necessary? I mean, can’t we just enjoy the books in the way the author intended them? Life is short; why read the same books again and again? I imagine Vladimir looking at me over his reading glasses as he delivers his judgment:

If a person thinks he cannot evolve the capacity of pleasure in reading the great artists, then he should not read them at all. After all, there are other thrills in other domains: the thrill of pure science is just as pleasurable as the pleasure of pure art. The main thing is to experience that tingle in any department of thought or emotion. We are liable to miss the best of life if we do not know how to tingle, if we do not learn to hoist ourselves just a little higher than we generally are in order to sample the rarest and ripest fruit of art which human thought has to offer.

— Vladimir Nabokov

I slink a little lower in my chair under Nabokov's withering gaze. I know he's right. If I'm going to spend all this time reading, why not aim a little higher?

Last year, I joined a group of like-minded readers on #BookTwitter to read In Search of Lost Time by Marcel Proust. I had a few false starts over the years with this six-volume masterpiece, known for its pages-long sentences and intricate narrative style. Reading just ten pages a day with a cohort of distinguished readers helped me stay on track and enjoy it more. During the hard going parts, I felt better after seeing tweets from others who shared my exasperation. Misery loves company. We finished the final volume together in June — a voyage of more than 4,000 pages — and I was glad to be done with it. Few tingles, and even fewer shivers, I'm afraid. But, I wonder now if that first reading of Proust wasn't simply the preamble to a second, more profound reading? Could I start again, now knowing the storyline and themes, and burrow deeper under the skin of this recognized classic?

I'll be honest: I'm not ready to dive back into Proust. But, I do believe I need to change my approach in reading these classics.

I've joined another #BookTwitter group this month to read George Eliot's Middlemarch, considered one of the greatest novels of all time. I read this a long time ago but remember little about it. With Nabokov's advice fresh in my mind, I've decided to use this book as an experiment in deep, focused reading. For Middlemarch, I'm making some pronounced changes in my reading style:

  1. I'm reading the physical book. I read many books on Kindle, and I love its light form factor and ability to easily highlight passages and look up words. But writing notes in the margins is iffy, and it's harder to flip around in the book. I bought the Penguin Classics Deluxe edition of Middlemarch even though I own George Eliot's complete works in a nice leather-bound set. I want the freedom to mark this book up without remorse, to make it my own.
  2. I'm keeping a book journal. I'm dedicating a Field Notes notebook for this reading with sections for themes, character sketches, chapter notes, and unique vocabulary. These little notebooks are the perfect size to fill with a single meaty book and are slim enough to tuck inside the cover when I'm finished. I will ultimately transcribe the notes I take into Obsidian, but for this reading, I want to keep a physical, handwritten ledger for better synthesis and retention. If I reread Middlemarch (which Nabokov suggests I should), I can review and append to the journal.
  3. I'm reading with focus and attention. I always read a book in bed before sleep, but not this one. I'm setting aside time in my reading room with the book propped up on a lap desk, a pen in hand, and an iPad nearby for tracking down literary and historical references.
  4. I'm going down the rabbit holes. To finish this 900-page book in a month, we're reading 30 pages a day, which translates to about 30 minutes at my usual pace. I'm doubling or tripling that time with this book. Instead of guessing at uncertain historical figures or literary allusions, I'm looking each one up and noting it in the margins. I'm recording new words and their definitions in the back pages of my journal. I'm keeping a running log for each character and a list of themes that recur throughout the novel. I'm writing a summary of each chapter, which forces me to stand back and review what happened, how it moved the story forward, what new questions arose, etc., to gain a better sense of the novel's structure and story arc.

After finishing Middlemarch, I'll have a better sense of whether this deep reading approach provides the kind of return I expect. If it does, I'm very tempted to change my approach to reading in 2022. Forget the pressure of a sixty-book GoodReads challenge or an unending "To Be Read" pile to tackle. Instead, I'll spend the year reading just a few great books, deeply, with fun reads thrown in at bedtime.

We can't slow the race of time, but we can choose to be more discerning and diligent in making use of the time we have. Augustus had the right of it: Festina lente. Make haste, slowly.

Writing Things Down in a Paperless World

For the past ten years, I have been on a mission to eradicate paper from my work and home life. I can now access information more quickly and from anywhere, whether at sea or at the Apple Store where I need to produce the invoice for a dead MacBook Pro. And yet, one hold-out refuses to go gently into that dark night of paper annihilation: my Field Notes notebooks. These pint-sized memo books with their quirky designs and durable paper still travel with me just about everywhere. I sometimes wonder at the irony of using a $1,000 iPad Pro as a lap desk to scribble in a $4 notebook.

With everything else in my life so digitally focused, why do I still fill one of these 48-page Field Notes every three or four weeks?

This morning, I pulled out a year’s worth of tattered notebooks to see if I could solve this mystery. To be honest, I was apprehensive at looking too closely. Part of me wanted to leave well enough alone and not probe, perhaps fearing that I would find a bunch of meaningless jibber-jabber and force myself to give up these little books that I love so much. With some trepidation then, I skimmed the scribbles, diagrams, lists, weird dreams, single underlined words, whole paragraphs of intense, slanted scrawl, arrows, and lots of scratched-out words. Each notebook told a confused story about my state of mind at the time: hopes and worries, looming decisions, crazy, half-baked ideas, and incomplete solutions to problems that troubled me. As I flipped the pages, I watched meandering thoughts morph and solidify under the pressure of continued probing and analysis.

Give me a small canvas of blank paper and a pen, and I can slip into a deeper mental state than I seem to achieve in front of a blinking cursor. After a few minutes of doodles, I may even open a tiny crack into my subconscious. The physical act of handwriting may provide a familiar comfort that allows my mind to settle and focus. Perhaps it’s the simplicity of the interface: no buttons, no battery to charge, just me and my ill-formed thoughts. Maybe the old leather cover I use to carry the notebook and pen, scuffed and softened over many years of use, sends a chemical signal through my fingertips to open, to relent.

Psychologists have shown that writing things down on paper helps you remember better. The folks at Field Notes understand this:

Jamie Rubin, a writer and technology enthusiast, recently returned to notecards for his reading notes after struggling to reap the benefits he expected from keeping these inside Obsidian. I store my reading notes in Craft but have encountered few of the promised eureka moments since adopting this Zettelkasten technique of hyper-linked notes. While I appreciate the ability to retrieve and update these notes quickly, I don’t seem to be able to think as clearly (or as abstractly) within an app like Craft as I do on paper.

In one of Nabokov’s lectures on literature 1, he defines memory as one of the four key attributes of a good reader (or thinker). Whether you remember things by writing them down or searching your Obsidian vault might be a wash. He calls having a nearby dictionary the second important attribute. Here, I tip my hat to the internet. How satisfying it is to tap an unknown word on the screen of a Kindle with my finger, and as if by magic, a well-crafted definition (or translation, or Wikipedia page) appears without leaving my place in the text. But, it’s his final two attributes of a good reader, that of having an active imagination and some artistic sense, that strike me as the hardest to achieve digitally. Artistry and imagination are still the dominion of pad and paper.

When I’m stuck on something, I instinctively reach for my little notebook — not my iPad. And while what I capture is often raw and disjointed, I review these notes every morning over coffee, checking in with my subconscious, allowing fragments to inch together as if by magnetic pull. It might take days or even weeks of scribbles and circled words to reach true clarity of thought.

When Jimmy Buffett has an idea for a song — sometimes just a phrase — he writes it down on any available scrap of paper and stuffs it into an old sea chest. When he’s ready to write some new music, he sits down and pulls out all those scribbles, which I imagine must be torn off bar napkins and beer coasters, and sorts through them, one by one. He says many of his most popular songs marinated in his sea chest before emerging as lyrics.

I do something similar in Field Notes. I reserve the last page of every notebook for my “Compost Heap,” a technique I borrowed from Neil Gaiman’s wonderful MasterClass on storytelling. Here, I write down bizarre images from dreams, lines from songs, evocative phrases, short descriptions of people I’ve met, places I’ve visited — really anything. Over a few weeks, the list grows to a page or two of disconnected images and ideas, and often, I discover a larger mosaic than my conscious mind could articulate on its own.

The whimsy of Field Notes encourages this kind of abstraction. These little books would be plenty happy to record Scrabble scores or grocery lists or meeting notes. I’ve used beautiful leather-bound journals in the past and felt that unease at despoiling that first cream-colored, thick-stock blank page. Something fancy like that would freeze me in my tracks. But a wee Field Notes notebook urges me to scribble thoughts that haven’t left that gauzy symbolic state in my mind or bump together two very different lines of thinking whose offspring becomes a new insight.

Don’t get me wrong: a computer is terrific for capturing, storing and retrieving transactional or reference information. I would never go back to the stacks of files and paper that once littered my office. And while I love the promise of technology helping me uncover new insights and connections, I have come to accept — and celebrate — that my best thinking still takes place within the humble confines of a pen and a Field Notes notebook.

  1. Vladimir Nabokov, Lectures on Literature (A Harvest Book, 1980), 32.

Organizing the Tool Shed

In my office, I keep an old photograph of the Buckaroo Tavern in the Seattle neighborhood of Fremont. The photo truly captured the character of the place: two chrome-festooned Harley Davidson motorcycles parked up on the sidewalk out front, bright orbs from the lights hung over the pool tables, and an outstretched arm and pool cue of a patron poised in mid-shot. I spent many nights at this dive bar as a young man. My eyes burned from the cigarette smoke, and the rough-looking biker crowd that congregated at the bar would often chuckle over their beers at this clean-cut accountant toting a pool cue case, but I loved the place. I had the photograph framed when we first moved to Vashon Island. It hangs between a picture of Mark Twain standing before a pool table considering his next shot and a signed photograph of Jack Dempsey in his famous boxing stance. But, it’s the tavern picture that has caught my attention lately as I think back on that long ago life before kids.

You see, Lisa and I returned from a 3,000-mile road trip to drop off our son at college last week. And then, a few days later, we waved goodbye to our daughter as she drove off in her loaded-down Nissan to start her public accounting career in Los Angeles. In the space of a single heartbeat, the house went from cacophony and laughter to a hushed stillness.

We’ve been moving toward this day gradually for decades, but the suddenness caught me off guard, like a stiff poke to the solar plexus. For the first few days, I felt listless, perhaps depressed. It helped to keep busy, cleaning out the clutter and detritus left behind in the wake of these departures. My daughter’s old bedroom is now a nicely furnished guest room. I pass by it on the way downstairs each morning, and the shock of seeing her personality stripped from the room has not worn off. I should probably close the door.

Now I’m doing what any reasonable dad would do in this situation: I’m organizing the tool shed. I’ve measured out the available wall space for an elaborate tool storage system to deal with twenty-five years of disarray. I woke up last night dreaming of tools and freshly-shined equipment hanging in perfect order on the south wall of the shed, which I’m pretty sure has a clinical name in psychological circles.

At night, I’m reading Pema Chodron’s When Things Fall Apart to see if some old-fashioned Buddhist wisdom might help. The title felt appropriate for my situation. The advice here is blunt: lean into the loneliness and despair. Accept that life is impermanent and hopeless. “Nothing is what we thought,” she writes.

Even Rosie, the robot vacuum that haunts our rooms and hallways in search of dust and dog hair, seems out of sorts. Amidst the typical family clutter, I swear she steered for the stray charging cables and hair scrunchies that littered her path, opting for a short night’s work as she squealed out error codes in protest. Now, with no obstacles in her way, she carries out the nightly routine in sullen silence. I’ve watched her run into a wall, back up, and run into the same wall, again and again. I know how she feels.

The phone rings daily with questions and puzzlement: what kind of pots and pans should I buy? Why isn’t the internet working? And most recently, a texted picture of a massive drift of white suds covering the kitchen linoleum after using Joy dish soap in the automatic dishwasher. Still, I know these calls are numbered. Their lives will soon blossom out in every direction, with little time left for mom and dad. Cats in the Cradle has become the soundtrack playing in the back of my mind.

I’ve pondered my own abrupt departure from home at seventeen and the impact I must have had on my parents. I don’t recall any remorse at leaving, so desperate to begin a life of independence. It seems Karma has found me on the receiving end of that same natural impulse.

To be fair, we did plan for this eventuality, knowing the two of us would need to fill in the vacuum of our departed children. We bought an ocean-going trawler yacht that will take us on amazing adventures up to Alaska and down to Mexico — something Lisa and I dreamed of doing long before we started a family. And we still have each other: two lovebirds and best friends who laugh and grow quiet at most of the same things.

As I consider my options for pegboard (galvanized steel, ABS plastic, or good old-fashioned fiberboard?) and the kind of hooks and baskets I will need to organize all my tools and gadgets, I understand this present obsession isn’t healthy. I should be provisioning the boat for an extended fall cruise through the Gulf Islands and Desolation Sound, glad we’re not encumbered with school-age children. Or taking my beautiful wife to Tacoma to find a new dive bar where we can resume a 25-years-in-waiting game of nine-ball.

Yet, I can’t shake this feeling that If I could walk through my little shed and admire the nicely spaced rows of hammers and garden implements, the gas trimmer hanging just so, the old jumble of tools and tarps and junk transformed into calming straight lines and order, then ... well, then I could begin to accept this new reality, to acclimate to a universe where the axis is just slightly off-kilter, like the deck of a sailboat under a broad reach. Call it a last-minute negotiation in a deal already struck — a vestige of permanence before we set ashore in this undiscovered country while the ships burn, leaving no trace but rusted keels in the shallows.

Water, Water

On a boat, the most basic conveniences of life — like running water — require forethought and attention. In this post, we explore how we manage water aboard our Nordhavn 43 trawler.

Ample fresh water aboard Indiscretion is one of the many extravagances we enjoy aboard this expedition trawler. Our Catalina sailboat had just 50 gallons of fresh water, which we stretched to six or seven days of cruising with careful dishwashing and quick cockpit showers for the kids. The trawler holds 300 gallons of fresh water with onboard water-making capability that, in theory, provides us with an infinite supply.

With greater supply comes greater use. Besides washing dishes, we take hot showers every day and wash our clothes in a Splendide combination washer/dryer. Every toilet flush uses fresh water. I wash down the boat using fresh water outlets in the bow and stern after most passages. Even the watermaker uses fresh water during its flushing routine. Between two people, we use about 50 gallons of water a day when we’re cruising. With our 300 gallon tank, that equates to six days of water — ironically, the same as our sailboat.

But Can We Drink It?

Water treatment on our sailboat was pretty simple. Once a year, I treated the 50-gallon tank with a small amount of bleach and let it sit overnight. I drained and refilled the tank twice, then patted myself on the back for a job well done.

On the trawler, it’s not so simple. For one thing, draining and filling a 300-gallon water tank takes a long time, let alone twice. And wasting that much fresh water makes me cringe. But more importantly, bleach damages the expensive membrane in watermakers that use fresh water for periodic flushing and is, therefore, a no-no in our trawler’s water system.

Without our bleach routine, I had concerns about the potability of water from the tanks without some kind of water treatment or filtering process. I considered installing an inline water treatment system, but in the end, we opted for the simplicity of a dockside water filter setup that many RV owners use. We bought an Ultra with VirusGuard from ClearSource that filters incoming dock water in three stages: a 5-micron filter that removes any sediment or rust in the water; a 0.5-micron coconut shell carbon filter for improved taste and smell; and finally, a NASA-designed filter that removes any bacteria, cysts, and viruses from the water before it enters our tank. We keep a Brita water filter pitcher in the galley for drinking water.

ClearSource Ultra with VirusGuard in action ...
ClearSource Ultra with VirusGuard in action ...

We keep the Ultra in the lazarette locker and pull it out when we take on water at docks. The filters last about a year and a replacement set costs about $60 from ClearSource. While dock water here in the Pacific Northwest is generally potable, we definitely noticed an improved taste in our water after switching over to this filter system.

Water, Water Every Where

Besides a large water tank, we have a Spectra watermaker that transforms seawater into drinking water using a desalination process. The system makes 12.5 gallons of fresh water an hour, so we can keep up with our daily usage by running the system four hours a day. For expeditions like our planned trip up the inside passage to Alaska, we’ll run the watermaker in open water while underway and never worry about running short.

The Spectra Catalina MPC5000 MKII Watermaker nestled in the port side of the lazerette.
The Spectra Catalina MPC5000 MKII Watermaker nestled in the port side of the lazerette.

Making water at anchor is also possible, but comes with some cautions. Our system utilizes two pre-filters — a 20-micron filter and a 5-micron filter — before seawater enters the watermaker itself. When making water in open sea, these pre-filters might need to be cleaned every two or three months. When making water at anchor, the pre-filters might need to be cleaned daily or even hourly. The Spectra provides a pre-filter status on a control panel in the pilothouse during the water-making process that helps you track how mucked up the pre-filters have become.

The process of cleaning (or replacing) pre-filters is straightforward, if a bit disgusting: First, the seacock that feeds seawater to the watermaker must be turned off to prevent flooding the lazarette. Then, you unscrew the filter bowls from their housings with a filter wrench, careful not to spill too much seawater. I learned to keep a disposable aluminum baking pan nearby to catch the inevitable spills. Once the filters have been extracted, they get rinsed using a seawater wash-down hose on the swim platform. Words fail to describe the smell coming off these filters during this hosing-off process: a bouquet of rotten eggs, seaweed, decay, and a dark, primordial stench you hope washes off as it splashes around your bare feet. When the filters look clean and the water runs clear, they get a final rinse of fresh water and spend a couple of days of drying in the sun to kill off any lingering sea life before being put back in rotation for the next filter swap. A pre-filter can withstand a half dozen cleanings like this before needing to be discarded. I pop in a clean pair of filters from a supply I keep near the watermaker and apply a little silicone grease to the o-ring of the filter housing to keep a good seal before reattaching. Finally, I reopen the watermaker seacock, and we’re back in the watermaking business.

Recently cleaned watermaker pre-filters.
Recently cleaned watermaker pre-filters.

We had family join us midway through a long stretch of anchoring during a recent cruise through the San Juan Islands. I had neglected to run the watermaker, and our water tank was getting low. We were anchored inside Garrison Bay on the northwest corner of San Juan Island, which was crowded with boats ahead of the July 4th holiday. I decided to make water in the morning and night to coincide with our daily running of the generator to boost our water supply. However, after just one hour, the pre-filter alarm sounded in the pilothouse. The brand new pre-filters I installed at the start of our cruise were miserably clogged. I cleaned the filters and tried again, only to have the alarm sound again the next hour. Either the bay was too shallow (we had just five feet under our keel at low tide) or too crowded, but I gave up trying to make water after the second alarm. We had to watch our water usage for a couple of days — no showers, careful dishwashing, etc. Leaving Garrison Bay, I ran the watermaker on our two-hour trip to Sucia Island without any trouble and again once we were anchored in Echo Bay to replenish our tank.

I learned I need to be more proactive about managing our water levels when we’re away from docks. I had many opportunities to make water ahead of our stay in Garrison Bay, but became complacent. Likewise, I discovered that some anchorages are much better for making water than others, that making water is better on an incoming tide, and that the best water you can make is underway in open sea.

Did We Just Run Out of Water?

Indiscretion has Tecma electric toilets that magically flush with fresh water at the touch of a button. I still delight in this technological marvel after so many years of pumping seawater by hand into the heads of our sailboats.

About halfway through our recent cruise, I encountered a problem with our master stateroom toilet. Pressing the flush button caused the toilet to make all the sounds of a proper flush, but no water flowed through the bowl. Huh.

I tried the nearby sink. No water. I tried the galley sink. Nothing. I knew the tank couldn’t be empty. If a tap had been left open, we would have heard the water pump cycling. Could the tank itself have developed a leak? My mind raced through all the dependencies we had on running water. Toilet flushing rose quickly to the top. No water, no toilets. I began cursing myself for not keeping a spare pump aboard. A Marco UP6/e supplies our water and runs about $700 to replace. I was waiting to buy one on sale, but hadn’t found a deal before leaving for this trip. Ugh.

I powered off the water pump at the distribution panel and waited a few adrenaline-filled moments before powering it back on. Resetting power to the water pump restored water pressure. Whew! A scan of the Marco operating manual led me to a series of coded blinking lights on the pump itself, which could mean overheating, an obstruction, or a leak somewhere in the system. A quick search on the Nordhavn Owner’s Group forum revealed that other owners with this pump had similar malfunctions without a clear resolution apart from powering off and on.1

That morning, I ordered a spare Marco pump from Fisheries Supply in Seattle by express delivery to Roche Harbor Marina. I may be $800 poorer, but I’ve eliminated a critical dependency aboard this expedition trawler that would disrupt our cruising plans. A captain must keep the water flowing and the toilets flushing!

Questions or comments about water systems aboard Indiscretion? Leave us a comment below.

  1. Once back in port, I checked the water filter that feeds into the Marco pump. After cleaning out a fair amount of debris, the pump has functioned flawlessly.

Boat Problem? Think Horses, Not Zebras

One of the great joys of anchoring out in a beautiful bay is the free time you have to focus on lingering boat projects. When you’re away from the boat, these issues seem to stack up until a later day. But here in Hunter Bay in the beautiful San Juan Islands? I had plenty of time.

My focus of the day: a wiring problem lurking somewhere in the pilothouse that randomly kept flipping our Maretron system circuit breaker. This happened when I opened or closed the ship’s service panel door, so I suspected a loose wire somewhere.

I had done just about everything I knew to do: wiring checking and connection tightening, temperature reading with an infrared thermometer, voltage checking with a voltmeter, and wire tracing to the Maretron computer. It all seemed fine, which led me to think the breaker switch itself must be failing. This conclusion troubled me. The internet is full of caution about replacing a circuit breaker when the real problem is a short somewhere, akin to bringing down a new canary to your coal mine after the last one up and died.

As I pondered this dilemma, I watched a fellow trawler yacht drop its anchor out in the channel for at least the tenth time today. The boat left the anchorage early this morning, headed out of the bay, only to stop about 500 yards out and drift. They soon dropped their anchor again, but out in the middle of the channel. I thought initially they meant to do some fishing. But an hour later, the boat pulled up the anchor and headed out again, only to stop and drift, then redeploy their anchor. The process repeated all day. It sure seemed like engine trouble.

I decided to take a break from my circuit breaker problem and head over in the tender to see if I could lend a hand. The idea that I might help another boater with an engine issue would have been preposterous three years ago, but I’ve learned a lot since then. Who knows, but maybe I could help? At a minimum, I could tow them into the anchorage for the night.

I arrived alongside the boat to find a flustered skipper. The boat's gas inboard was overheating, and he had run out of ideas on what could be wrong. It was the hottest day in history here in the northwest, and he was drenched in sweat. His first mate smiled, but looked worried.

We talked through the possibilities: clogged raw water intake? Good flow and no obstructions. Bad impeller? Replaced, though the old one looked fine. Coolant level? Topped off. He thought it must be a clogged or corroded heat exchanger. I asked him if he had an infrared thermometer to confirm it wasn't just a bad gauge. He didn't have one.

I motored back to the boat to retrieve my Fluke 62 Max IR thermometer. I learned the importance of carrying one of these indispensable gadgets aboard after our first Northern Lights Training class with Bob Senter. I take temperature readings of a half dozen areas in the engine room when I complete my routine checks underway. Knowing the baseline temperature of your coolant tank, stabilizer system, alternator, prop shaft, etc. can help identify potential problems early if something is running hotter than normal. These point-and-shoot thermometers can also verify temperature readings from digital and analog gauges that can sometimes produce erroneous, heart-thumping readings.

The Fluke IR thermometer in action.
The Fluke IR thermometer in action.

After checking all parts of the engine with the IR gun, the trawler skipper was able to confirm that his engine wasn’t overheating, despite a gauge in the pilothouse saying otherwise. It turns out he had pulled out a faulty temperature gauge on the flybridge last week and planned to replace it at some point. He reinstalled the non-working gauge, and voilà, the pilothouse gauge started working correctly again. He promised to buy an IR thermometer when he got back to his home port in La Conner. His smile as he waved goodbye was priceless.

I returned to my Indiscretion and my circuit breaker problem, feeling good about helping another boater in a jam. Lord knows I’ve been the recipient of some good boating Samaritans these past three years. I finally got to pay some of that goodwill forward. I inspected the circuit breaker again, thinking I would detach it from the ship’s service panel to see if I could detect any cracks or corrosion. That’s when I noticed the single screw that attaches the circuit breaker to the panel was loose. Really loose.

When I opened or closed the panel door, the loose screw allowed the circuit breaker to shift just enough to nudge the switch off. Tightening a single screw solved the entire issue.

The screw holding the Maretron circuit breaker was loose.
The screw holding the Maretron circuit breaker was loose.

I laughed at myself when I realized how simple the problem was. Sometimes we look too far beyond the most obvious solution in front of us. A faulty temperature gauge, a loose screw. As the old saying goes: “When you hear hoofbeats in the night, look for horses — not zebras.”

Indiscretion Gets a Second Brain

With most of my nautical life spent on sailboats, marine electronics has never been much of a focus area. Our most well-equipped cruising sailboat carried just basic navigation equipment: an autopilot, a chartplotter, and instruments for speed, depth, and wind. I knew that more sophisticated systems were available; I just didn’t see the need for anything more complex, though radar would have been a welcome addition with all the fog we have here in the summer.

Indiscretion has navigation instruments and electronics that are far more advanced than any of our sailboats. Besides the basics, we have an open array radar with a satellite compass that overlays radar images right on the chart. We have an NMEA 2000 network running throughout the boat that tracks all sorts of information when we’re underway or at anchor. A Maretron monitoring system tells us, for example, how much fuel and water sit in our tanks, the angle of our rudder, the temperature of the sea, and how far we’ve drifted from our anchor — all from a computer screen in the pilothouse. In our three years aboard the trawler, I haven’t felt the need to add much to our electronics suite. A compass, an open view of the water ahead, and a good chart felt like all I needed.

That is until I spent some time this spring buddy boating with marine technical wizard Steve Mitchell. Besides being a super nice guy, Steve knows more about boat electronics than anyone I’ve ever met, and he freely shares his expertise on his blog, SeaBits.com. If you have any interest in marine electronics, especially getting internet on a boat, have a look at this wonderful resource.

Steve has equipped his beautiful Ocean Alexander with practically every electronic tool you can imagine. He gave me a boat tour of Rendezvous when we shared a dock at Fossil Bay on Sucia Island. While Steve pointed out all the myriad screens and panels from his helm station, I felt a little dizzy. So much information. So many gadgets! He showed me his navigation software, TimeZero Professional, and screen after screen of critical navigation information. My head hurt a little after trying to understand it all.

I invited Steve aboard Indiscretion for a tour of our pilothouse the next day. He took in our instrument panel like a veteran quarterback scanning down field for an open receiver. In a few minutes, he was flipping through never-before-seen setup screens on our Furuno TZ Touch chartplotter and our Furuno NavNet MFD 12. He poked button combinations on our Furuno autopilot that I didn’t know were possible. He turned back to the chartplotter.

“I don’t see any saved routes here. How do you navigate from place to place?”

“Oh, I just use the autopilot and spin that little course change dial,” I said.

Steve studied my face for a moment to make sure I wasn’t joking, then shook his head. “You should enter your route into the chartplotter and let it steer your autopilot for you. That way, you aren’t constantly changing course, and you can keep a better watch for logs and other boats.”

This chartplotter can talk to that autopilot?” I asked. The possibilities bloomed in my imagination. I could sit back like Captain Kirk and hand off navigation duties to Ensign Furuno.

After a few more minutes of poking around, Steve gave me his verdict. “You’ve got a good set of navigation equipment that will work well with modern electronics, but the brain of your system,” he said, pointing at the NavNet MFD, “is beyond obsolete. You’re probably due to replace both Furuno MFDs and the TZT Touch with current models.”

I swallowed. That sounded expensive.

“Or you could just get a NUC and run TimeZero,” he offered. “That’s probably what I would do.”

Steve Mitchell aboard Indiscretion
Steve Mitchell aboard Indiscretion

After Steve’s visit aboard Indiscretion, I found myself dreaming about the boat steering herself for long passages while I sat back in the captain’s chair, gazing at the sea ahead and taking note of the many wondrous sights in the ship’s log. I tallied the cost of replacing our older NavNet 3D units with the current generation of Furuno chartplotters to modernize our pilothouse and flybridge navigation systems. The total cost, including an estimate for professional installation, would run close to $20,000.

I researched Nobeltec’s TimeZero navigation software, which runs on a Windows PC (no Mac version) and can interface with most modern marine navigation equipment. After reading and rereading online features and capabilities, what I saw during my tour aboard Rendezvous began to make more sense.

I discovered that a NUC is a tiny Windows PC made by Intel that many trawler owners use to run TimeZero. They are popular because of their small size, impressive performance, low power needs, and relatively low cost. NUCs also appeal to the DIY crowd because swapping memory and storage is dead simple.

Fate and good karma conspired a month later when I won a raffle prize of a free license of TimeZero Navigator at the 2021 Nordhavn Rendezvous (thank you, Nobeltec and all the event sponsors!).

That settled it: Indiscretion would get a second brain.

Shopping Spree and Installation

I purchased the latest generation NUC with an Intel i5 processor for about $500. Another $150 for a 500 GB SSD hard drive and 16 GB of RAM, and I had a versatile onboard PC that would run any software I might need on the boat. I picked up a DC converter on Amazon to use 12V to power the NUC to minimize battery drain. I rounded out the setup with a wireless keyboard and mouse.

Next, I spent $1,000 to upgrade my free copy of TimeZero Navigator to the Professional version. Typically, a recreational boater wouldn’t need this extra functionality, but in our case, I could upgrade to ultimate navigation software for $1,000 or pay $500 to unlock the module to connect TZ Navigator to our Furuno system (Professional comes unlocked). I went big.

Indiscretion has a 15” marine-grade Furuno monitor in the pilothouse that provides an easy-to-see screen even in direct sunlight and dims automatically to preserve your night vision during nighttime passages. We use this monitor for our Maretron system and a variety of cameras on the boat. I connected the NUC to its last remaining video port, eliminating the need for another screen on the pilothouse dash.

A week later, the boxes arrived with the computer and its innards. The TZ Professional software license codes sat waiting for me in my email inbox. All I had to do was set it up. I installed the hard drive and RAM modules in mere minutes. That was easy. But when I powered up the NUC, I learned that Windows wasn’t installed. Uh oh. I would need to download the Windows installer program on another Windows computer. Ugh. This is why I use a Mac.

Luckily, I keep a cheap HP laptop in a drawer on the boat for updating our Maretron monitoring system. I used it to download Windows 10 onto a thumb drive and, after deciphering some cryptic installer options, had Windows 10 Professional running successfully on the NUC.

Next, I installed TimeZero Professional and then all my charts. Another benefit of going with the Professional version is that the charts I bought for our existing Furuno NavNet system transfer over free.

Then, the moment of truth. Would this NUC and TimeZero software connect to my Furuno navigation instruments and radar? I powered the Furuno gear up, plugged in the NUC to our NavNet network using an ethernet cable, and ran the connection wizard in TimeZero.

After some initial failures, I received navigation data in TimeZero, but no matter how many configurations I tried, I could not get TimeZero to send steering commands to our Furuno autopilot. I spent a long weekend searching Furuno and TimeZero forums and tinkering with settings unsuccessfully.

I called TimeZero technical support on Monday for assistance. A friendly support technician named Lucas picked up on the second ring, and I described my problem.

“Ah, yes,” he said. “You can’t connect to your old equipment using ethernet. You need an Actisense NGT-1 USB cable, so you can connect directly to your NMEA 2000 network.”

I found the $240 cable on defender.com and a $20 T-Connector to patch into the boat’s network backbone.

A week later, the cable arrived, and I installed it in place of the ethernet cable. I ran the TimeZero connection wizard. Still, no luck.

I called TimeZero support again. Lucas answered on the first ring. He started asking questions about network settings and whether TimeZero was connected to the NMEA network. My uncertain replies must have been a clue that I didn’t really know what I was talking about. “Do you have boat internet?” He asked.

“Yes, I do.” Finally, a question could answer.

“OK, great. Let me take over your TimeZero system, and we’ll figure this out.”

In a few moments, Lucas had full control over my system. I watched as screens quickly appeared and vanished as we chatted.

“Yeah, so you aren’t connected to your NMEA 2000 network. Did you install the drivers for the Actisense cable?”

“Uh …” I stammered.

“No worries. I can do that from here. Also, the firmware on the cable needs to be updated to work with the latest version of our software.”

After a few minutes, Lucas had the drivers and latest firmware installed. He ran the connection wizard in Time Zero again, and this time the software connected to the NMEA 2000 network. A simple checkbox near the end of the connection process integrated the autopilot. Another click added TimeZero’s cloud service for my iPad. The system was now fully integrated and operational, thanks to terrific technical support from TimeZero.

Navigating with TimeZero Professional

We had a chance to put Indiscretion’s new navigation system to work on a cruise to the San Juan Islands last week.

The night before departure, I built the route for our first leg of the trip: Quartermaster Harbor to Port Ludlow. I plotted the course from my easy chair at home using TZ iBoat on my iPad. The iPad app lacks much of the functionality of the desktop software, but the touch interface for plotting a course is terrific.

TimeZero route on iPad
TimeZero route on iPad

The next morning, I powered up our navigation equipment and the new TimeZero system as the engine warmed up. The route I created the night before on the iPad appeared as if by magic, ready to activate on the pilothouse screen.

TimeZero provides an estimate of the best time to cast off using a route optimization routine. Currents can run pretty strong in Puget Sound and the northern islands, so planning your trip around them is critical, especially on a slow boat like a trawler. Before this, we cobbled together a few different tide and current apps to make our best guess on when to leave. TimeZero turns this into a more exact science, providing a departure time to the minute to minimize your voyage time.

As we left the marina and steamed out of Inner Quartermaster Marina, I activated our chosen route and turned the helm over to TimeZero. The route transformed into a highway shape with an icon for Indiscretion chugging down it. I sat back in the helm chair and watched the magic unfold. Waypoints arrived and passed astern, with the autopilot responding perfectly for each course change. Instead of focusing on our course, I could simply watch for boat traffic and obstructions in the water. Other than diverting for commercial traffic and a few logs, I rarely interfered with the helm. On the five-hour trip, TimeZero steered 99.5% of the time without needing a single coffee break.

TimeZero Professional  (left) and Furuno TZT Chartplotter (right)
TimeZero Professional (left) and Furuno TZT Chartplotter (right)

A Smart Investment

Between the NUC PC, TimeZero software, and the ActiSense cable, I spent about $2,000 to equip Indiscretion with this new navigation setup. This a terrific bargain considering these benefits:

Two Are Better Than One. Before this, I relied exclusively on the 14” TZ Touch chartplotter for navigation. That worked fine, but having two independent navigation screens directly in front of the helm is much better. The TimeZero screen shows our route, radar overlay, AIS targets and closest points of approach, and time and distance left on our trip. I use the chartplotter screen for all other chart-related information. I can zoom out and pan forward to check the waterways ahead while keeping tabs on our current course at a zoomed-in level on the left. Or, I can zoom in to a much finer detail on the chartplotter to check charted depths, again without disrupting my view of our current voyage. Both screens show similar information, but I can tailor the views to fit any navigational need I might have.

The Power of the Cloud. TimeZero connects wirelessly to the internet for chart and weather updates and extends the reach of AIS by incorporating vessel tracking via MarineTraffic.com. For me, the ability to plan a route on my iPad in the salon as Lisa and I discuss our next destination and have that route ready to activate from the pilothouse is a killer feature.

Potential for Future Expansion. This NUC computer has the horsepower to run more than just TimeZero Professional. We need to update our Maretron MBB200C “black box” computer, which runs our vessel monitoring system. This unit is seven years old and can no longer run the current version of Maretron’s N2KView software. A quick call to Maretron support confirmed that the diminutive NUC could take over that function for us, saving us $1,500 in computer replacement and the power drain of running two separate pilothouse computers.

I’ve just scratched the surface of the capabilities of TimeZero Professional, but it’s already become an essential part of our navigation. This new setup has added a ton of new life into the boat’s aging electronics, which will allow me to defer this $20,000 replacement of those expensive chartplotters for at least another year. When I do buy new units, this NUC/TimeZero system will still provide all the benefits of a second navigation brain for the boat.

While spending money on a boat rarely provides a return, I can already tell that this particular setup will pay dividends for years to come.

Early Spring in the San Juans: Island Jewels

Part three: After a rough start (part one) and a nice passage north (part two), we concluded our three weeks of island hopping through the beautiful San Sun Islands, enjoying mostly fine weather and deserted anchorages.

Jones Island

After a blissful three days on Stuart Island, we plot the seven-mile course to Jones Island. A strong current flows against us between Speiden and San Juan Island, so we decide to take the northern route above Speiden to see if we could make better time. This turns out to be a mistake. An even stronger current slows us, and worse, a series of tidal eddies have us spinning this way and that as we make our way eastward through New Channel. At the narrowest part of the passage between Speiden and the Cactus Islands, I marvel at a flock of floating birds spinning on the water like they are riding an invisible merry-go-round. Moments later, we enter this vortex to hell ourselves.

Let’s just say we are still cleaning up the mess from our drinks refrigerator spilling all its contents into the salon on one particularly vicious careening lurch. Now I know to lock the refrigerator door before each departure, regardless of how calm the water might seem.

We find the northern bay of Jones Island nearly deserted when we arrive. The dock had been reinstalled a day earlier after being removed all winter. We take a spot along the pier, joining a small powerboat. All three mooring buoys sit vacant. Spring cruising!

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We love anchoring and mooring buoys, but docks are incredibly convenient when traveling with dogs. After our ceremonial arrival beer, it’s a simple matter of stepping off the boat and walking down the dock for shore leave for the pups. No crane to lower the tender, no long motoring to the dinghy dock. This is especially welcome when it’s dark and rainy. We find ourselves gravitating towards state park docks a lot this trip.

Friends from Rendezvous and Alexandria join us at Jones for some buddy boating the next day. We enjoy hikes through the island, cookout meals on the dock, and merriment. Getting together with boat friends after a long winter of isolation and social distancing is like salve for our souls.

During a visit here many years ago when our kids were still quite young, we encountered miniature deer that came trotting straight up to us. We have deer on Vashon, but none so small, cute and friendly as these fellas. We watch for them during our hikes, but I’m guessing our two rambunctious dogs spooked them this time.

Jones Island when the kids were young. My, how time flies.

We have fantastic weather for two and half days, but a north wind rolls in on our last night. Our friends are on mooring buoys, and both boats roll and pitch from about midnight on, making for a very uncomfortable night. Even boats at the dock surge and lift with the waves. Our captain friends cast off their lines at dawn for a calmer anchorage elsewhere, and we depart ourselves soon thereafter.

Deer Harbor

We make a stop at Deer Harbor Marina on Orcas Island to top off our house battery bank, offload some trash, and pick up supplies from the little dockside store. We miss the cut-off for their delicious bacon-cheeseburgers by twenty minutes. Ugh! Next time.

The marina has ample guest moorage with little need for reservations this time of year. An added bonus: off-season moorage rates are less than half of what they will be in the middle of summer.

Deer Harbor at twilight.

Fossil Bay on Sucia Island

We depart Deer Harbor after a single night for Sucia Island. We prefer Fossil Bay to the other anchorage options at Sucia because of the easy access to the shore via the two docks. On this visit, we take a space at the eastern end of the innermost dock. We expect high winds during our stay and don’t trust mooring buoys during a blow. We worry a bit about depth at the dock as the guidebooks are unclear about it. At a zero tide, we still have about two feet of water under our keel (Indiscretion draws 5 1/2 feet), but we wouldn’t want to dock here during a minus tide.

Flat calm in Fossil Bay

We stay three days at Sucia, taking in this beautiful island. We spoke with the park ranger when we first arrived, sharing our delight at how uncrowded it was. “Traffic has quadrupled in the last week or two,” she said. “For a few weeks in February, we didn’t have a single visitor here.” Wow.

We are joined at the dock by our friend Steve Mitchell on Rendezvous. We take long, picturesque hikes through the island trails and enjoy cocktails and boat stories together on the dock in the evenings. Welcomed by utterly flat water and sunshine, we take our tenders for a tour through Ewing Cove, Echo Bay, and even make a landing on prehistoric Finger Island.

On our second night at Sucia, a wind squall steals our Nordhavn welcome mat I left on the swim step. We search the shoreline but can’t spot it. It’s heavy, so it might have simply sunk near the dock. Steve brings out his underwater drone to see if he can spot it. I am doubtful, but I am learning never to doubt the ingenuity of boaters.

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Friday Harbor

We depart Sucia Island in a fresh North wind and uncomfortable seas en route to Friday Harbor. Two days of high winds have whipped President Channel into a maelstrom with rolling waves on the beam. Besides cooler weather, storms and high winds keep you on your toes when you cruise in early spring. This would have been a mighty uncomfortable passage without active fin stabilizers. Steaming along on an even keel in a cross-sea on a blustery morning like this reminds me once again why we chose a go-anywhere Nordhavn trawler.

We take a guest slip for three days at the Port of Friday Harbor Marina to enjoy some shore leave while we wait out another squall. We heard stories about a notorious current that interferes with docking inside the marina, but we hadn’t experienced it ourselves.

Our assigned slip is on K dock on the inside of Breakwater D. Winds gust to 15 knots inside the marina as we make our way between boats circling the fuel dock, then through the tight fairway turns leading to K dock. We don’t have much wiggle room to maneuver. A beamy trawler takes up at least half our assigned berth, so this is going to be a tight squeeze. An impromptu audience assembles along the encircling dock like fight fans at a boxing match to observe any miscues I might make. With prop wash and prop walk, I spin the boat around to face our slip, and slowly ease her forward. I don’t know it yet, but I’m about to experience first-hand the unwavering force of a cross current. I want to avoid hitting the neighboring trawler to port, so I favor the dock to starboard on my approach. With the bow about ten feet inside the slip, I get bad news from Lisa over the headset.

“You’re coming in too too close! Bow to starboard! OH! BOW TO STARBOARD! We’re going to hit the dock!”

These are not the words you want to hear as you dock a boat, especially with a crowd watching.

I find that the thrusters aren’t powerful enough to keep us off the dock, so I give the engine a healthy burst of reverse, and we back out and away from calamity. Once clear of the slip, we have about ten feet behind us before hitting a beautiful 60-foot motor yacht, with other sailboats and yachts in every other direction. I have nightmares about being in this kind of situation. I take a breath, get the boat aligned with our slip, and try again, this time with a little more speed, aiming for the beamy trawler next to our slip. It takes a certain amount of moral certitude to purposely aim your trawler at another yacht. This time, the current corrects our course and we squeeze in without a scrape on either side, though we only have inches to spare all around. The disappointed crowd shuffles off. There should be cheers, but none are offered.

We enjoy our stay at Friday Harbor, taking long walks along the harbor and to the off-leash dog park outside of town. We buy more provisions at King’s Market. We treat ourselves to a delicious date night dinner at Herb’s Tavern, where the two of us played pool so many years ago.

Date night at Herb’s Tavern!

Heading Home

Despite an improving forecast of sunny weather in the islands, family responsibilities require we point the bow south and homeward after almost three weeks of island cruising.

Before releasing the dock lines, I toss a piece of bread in the water off our stern. It bobs there unmoving until a seagull swoops down to devour it. No current. I smile.

We set out at 9 am through Cattle Pass to catch the flood. True to the forecast, the Strait of Juan de Fuca welcomes us with light wind and calm seas. At seven knots, it takes us around four hours to cross this large body of water, which is exposed to the vast Pacific Ocean. On a smooth crossing like this, we mainly focus on avoiding logs and other boats while keeping a keen eye for porpoises and whales. We take hour-long turns at the helm to break things up. I enjoy a hot shower, another cup of coffee, and time in the cockpit watching the islands sink over the horizon in our wake. At trawler speed, you have more time to meditate on life afloat: the changing colors of the water, the astonishing forms a single stretch of sea can take (so beautiful today, but the Strait can be harrowing in a small craft), and the almost evolutionary process of traveling to a new place on a slow boat.

Crossing the Strait of Juan de Fuca. Goodbye San Juans!

The wind picks up and the seas grow as we approach Port Townsend and Admiralty Inlet. The next day’s forecast calls for heavy winds out of the north, so we decide to push on for Eagle Harbor on Bainbridge Island to make the final leg home shorter.

As we travel down the interminable coast of Whidbey Island, a confused cross-sea has our stabilizer fins working hard to keep us from rolling, though we can’t avoid a corkscrew motion as we navigate a following sea. A little uncomfortable, but nothing like it would be without stabilization. The current pushes us along in excess of eight knots, but eddies and cross-currents toy with our Furuno autopilot, which finds itself in a perpetual state of course correction. I tinker with the Furuno autopilot settings to account for rougher seas, and the steering improves.

After a nine-hour trip, we find space on the outside of the city dock in Eagle Harbor on Bainbridge Island. We postpone our arrival beers to allow the dogs their shore leave. After such short hops in the islands, nine hours must seem like an eternity to these little fellas. We arrive too late on a Sunday evening to take advantage of our favorite restaurants near the harbor, so we dig a bit in the freezer and cook our last boat meal aboard before home.

Home Port and High Wind Docking

We leave Eagle Harbor at 8:30 am on our final leg home. We have a spirited trip past Blake Island and down Colvos Passage. North winds of 25 to 30 knots against an ebb tide work up quite a fetch. We toil our way south with the stabilizers and autopilot working overtime to keep us level and on course.

Gusty winds welcome us as we near inner Quartermaster Harbor. I watch the wind speed climb from 15 knots to 30 knots within a couple of breaths. Typically, a north wind lines up well with our slip, but today it veers in gusts to starboard as we make our approach. We arrive at low tide, which limits our maneuverability near the shallow marina. We consider anchoring out to wait until the winds dies down, but dropping the tender in this kind of wind and choppy seas can be difficult. Plus, we need the practice of docking in all sorts of conditions, right?

First Try: I make our usual approach, hoping the wind might be lighter near the dock. In and out of gear, letting the wind blow us inside our slip. I see that the wind is more abeam than usual, and when we are halfway inside the slip, a 35-knot gust takes hold of us (of course!), and we are pushed hard to port. We touch the dock briefly, but I give the engine a heavy burst of reverse, and we back safely away. I look astern and see mud spun up in our frothy prop wash. Ugh. Low tide has us nearly aground. I spin us around and head for deeper water to regroup.

Second Try: I aim upwind from the slip at the bow of a sailboat docked next to us. Like before, a heavy gust arrives as we near the slip, but the wind direction comes dead astern, pushing us dangerously close to a collision with the sailboat. Ugh! I back straight out this time, about 30 yards from the marina. I have a chat with Lisa over our Eartec radios, and we talk over our options: give it a third try or anchor out. I hold the boat in position in reverse gear as the wind buffets us from behind.

Third Try: I decide on one final try, this time waiting for a lull in the wind. Sure enough, the wind drops to 15 knots, and I edge forward. I was too close to the dock on the first try and too close to the neighboring boat on the second. This time, I choose a middle path with more forward throttle to keep steerage, coming in hot. I don’t realize it at the time, but our bow and stern thrusters have turned off (they shut off by themselves after a short period of inactivity). We slide into the slip at a 30-degree angle, and a burst of hard reverse with the helm hard over stops our forward progress. Prop walk and wind pushes the stern alongside the dock. Lisa has a spring line holding us in the slip faster than I could peek over the side from the flybridge. I try the thrusters to keep the boat positioned alongside the dock and realize the power is off. Good thing I didn’t need these coming in! We both have some adrenaline flowing through our veins for this landing.

Cruise Reflections

Spring cruising in the San Juan Islands was pretty fantastic. Yes, we had some weather and wind, but we have a trawler that can handle just about any conditions we might face afloat. And I got to practice some challenging docking maneuvers that I can build on as we continue our adventures in more far-flung waters.

Across our three weeks of cruising, we had two and half weeks of calm, beautiful, sunny days and nights. We couldn’t help noticing that even better weather arrived in the San Juans after making our trip home, which attracted more boaters. At the start of our voyage, we marveled at the empty bays and anchorages. By the trip’s end, things had started to get busy. Docks began filling up. Mooring buoys were taken.

I think next year we’ll go again, but perhaps even earlier, and stay longer. Even after two decades of visiting these beautiful islands, We can’t seem to get our fill of these pristine islands. Maybe Indiscretion will be the first boat that intrepid Sucia Island park ranger welcomes in 2022.

Fair winds and smooth sailing.

 

Early Spring in the San Juan Islands: Heading North

Part Two: Having quickly resolved our hydraulic system problems, the crew of Indiscretion heads north for the San Juan Islands.

After departing Shilshole Marina, we arrive at Port Ludlow and spend the night at anchor to cross the Strait of Juan de Fuca with the tide in the morning. Weather on the Strait can be unsettled this time of year, but we have a nice window before a storm arrives on Sunday. This is our second visit to Port Ludlow and each time we wish we had more time to explore this lovely, protected bay.

Indiscretion at anchor in Port Ludlow

The crossing of the Strait is uneventful — just lumpy. High winds the night before leave behind a confused sea that has our stabilizers flapping this way and that to keep us on an even keel. I make more than a few trips to the engine room during the crossing to ensure the hydraulic system hasn’t sprung any new leaks. We’re steering for Roche Harbor, so we take the more exposed route through Haro Strait, hoping we might see whales again near Lime Kiln Point. No whales this trip, unfortunately.

Roche Harbor and Gale Force Winds

As we weave our way through Mosquito Pass, we marvel at the empty bays. Not a single boat occupies Westcott Bay or Garrison Bay, and just one lonely sailboat sits at anchor in all of Roche Harbor as we make our approach to the marina. What an incredible change from our visit last September when anchored boats choked all three of these popular destinations.

Guest moorage at Roche Harbor can be challenging to obtain in the summer months, but we have our choice of a number of open slips on the old guest dock. We pick a slip that could easily accommodate a mega-yacht deep inside the marina. The dock is so high we need to disembark from the starboard side rail. Indiscretion looks tiny in this gigantic berth, but we like how close we are to the top of the dock.

On the morning of the storm, we treat ourselves to freshly baked donuts from the Lime Kiln Café, followed by a hike to the Mausoleum in the wind and rain. Despite many trips to Roche Harbor, we had never made the trek. We time our visit with the ringing of the bells from the Roche Harbor Church on this Sunday morning. A solemn dirge drifts through the forest as we take in these sacred grounds. I can’t imagine a more peaceful place of eternal rest than this magical spot, dappled by sunlight, in a forest by the sea.

The Mausoleum near Roche Harbor

We continue our walk in search of a famed isthmus that the guidebooks suggest is just a mile past the mausoleum. We ignore road signs that proclaim the road ahead is restricted to property owners and guests. About a quarter-mile in, I start to feel nervous. We are almost certainly trespassing as we walk by mansion after mansion along this private road. More signs remind us of our ingress. We later discover we each made up a different name of the family we were supposedly visiting in case we were stopped.

As we took in a spectacular seaside estate, I turn to Lisa. “If we were black, would we dare take this walk?” She shakes her head and we talk though this blatant inequality. A black man and woman walking down this country lane would almost certainly be noticed. We exchange waves and smiles with the locals as we make our way past these beautiful homes. I feel shitty about the racial privilege we take for granted and get a glimpse of what it must feel like all the time to be black in this part of the country. We are both unsettled.

We take the long way back to the marina to avoid further trespassing and end up on a gravel and dirt road the carries on up and up through dense woods for some long while in the rain before descending again past the airport and back to the harbor.

After the morning rain subsides, we take the dogs for a walk up the hill to the off-leash dog park. Franklin is a Puggle who simply can’t be trusted off-leash. One interesting smell and he’s gone, no matter how emphatically we implore him to return. Both dogs enjoy stretching their legs around the large park, but soon Frank begins a systematic search of the perimeter for a way to freedom. Sigh.

We return to the boat as the wind builds for storm watch. The marina is well protected from south winds, so there isn’t much drama. We get some hail and lots of shifting and swaying boats. A friend anchored in Prevost Harbor reports 40 knot winds, but the highest gust we see is far below that. It’s nice to watch it all from the security of the dock, all warm and cozy in the panoramic pilothouse.

Reid Harbor on Stuart Island

We depart Roche Harbor the next morning for a short trip to Reid Harbor on Stuart Island. We motor slowly through the empty anchorage and vacant mooring buoys. Two small boats occupy the main dock, so we head for the floating dock. A north wind blows the boat off the dock as Lisa struggles with securing mooring lines to the bull rail.  We neglect to don our headsets, so there may or may not have been some unfortunate curse words that carried over the quiet bay as we made fast (by the end of our trip, Lisa ties up to bull rails like a cowboy in a rodeo). 

Within a couple of hours, the main dock itself is vacant, and we have the entire bay to ourselves.

In the tender on our way back to Indiscretion

We stay three full days at Stuart Island, establishing a pattern that would stick with us throughout our cruise. While most parks limit your stay to three days, this feels like the perfect amount of time to settle in and really see a place without feeling hurried.

Our first night on Stuart is magical. All is calm. The water reflects the hillside in near-perfect clarity. The sun sets against the backdrop of the western shore of the harbor. I put Linda Ronstadt’s Round Midnight on the boat’s stereo as the wonderful smells of Lisa’s cooking waft through the boat. I feel the stress of the journey sloughing off me, and something more: a warmth welling up inside me of peace, bordering on joy. We enjoy a fabulous meal and good red wine in the salon, taking in the beautiful evening, grinning at one another as if we’d just won the lottery.

The view from one of the hiking trails on Stuart Island

We tied up to the disconnected float in Reid Harbor instead of the dock because of our two dogs. Since there’s no access to shore, the dogs have free rein of the float for as long as no other boats join us. We had this romantic notion that the dogs might pee on the dock in the wee hours of morning and night instead of demanding us to take them ashore in the tender. They do race down the dock to chase off the cackling geese that dare to waddle too close to us, but alas, they fail to consider this 100-foot dock as a suitable place to pee, despite all forms of coaxing. Their dog-logic must consider the dock as part of the boat and thus off limits. Oh well.

The weather remains sunny and calm throughout our stay. I use the float to launch and land our drone for some aerial views of the bay, but my flying skills need a lot of work.

From the drone in Reid Harbor

We criss-cross the island on hikes, taking in amazing vistas and getting exercise in the process. We make the six-mile round-trip hike to the lighthouse on the western edge of Stuart. It feels like we have the whole island to ourselves.

The Stuart Island lighthouse

Our final night in Reid Harbor finds us lacking some important essentials. A trip in the tender to Roche Harbor would take just 15 minutes, but would involve crossing a pretty wide expanse of water in a small boat. The water inside Reid Harbor is glassy. After a little give and take with Lisa about the importance of beer on a boat, I make the trip alone in millpond-like conditions. I loved our sailing years and appreciate our trawler's fuel economy and ocean capabilities, but I sure love going 25 knots every once in a while.

25 knots across a flat, open sea

Keep reading for Part Three of our Early Spring Cruise in the San Juan Islands: Island Jewels.

Early Spring in the San Juan Islands: Departure Troubles

Part One: The crew of Indiscretion sets out for an open-ended cruise through the San Juan Islands in early spring, but their voyage is in jeopardy within hours of departure.

The San Juan Islands are some of the most beautiful cruising grounds in the world. More than a hundred named islands and reefs with numerous state parks, anchorages, and destination marinas are scattered throughout this archipelago spanning the waters of northwestern Washington state. While currents can sometimes be tricky to navigate, the San Juans are perfect for slow boats like trawlers. The islands are close enough that your next anchorage is usually just an hour or two away, even at seven knots, and there are almost an unlimited number of harbors and inlets to explore.

We’ve made dozens of trips and are still finding new places to visit. Even with all this potential variety, we seem to return to the same places year after year because we love them so much.

Our family has spent many weeks and months boating in the San Juan Islands over the past two decades. Two separate month-long trips stand out as incredible memories we made when the kids were young. But our cruising always took place in the peak season due to school schedules and a general preference for warmer weather. Now, with an empty nest and a comfortable all-weather trawler, why not explore these northern islands in the less crowded off-season? And check out places we’ve always meant to visit, but never found the time?

As we would soon learn, cruising the San Juans in early spring is an incredible experience. Yes, the weather and wind can be a handful at times, but the deserted anchorages and parks are well worth the extra care in trip planning.

Departure

We depart Vashon at mid-morning on March 25, headed for Port Ludlow on the ebb, which is around the halfway point from Vashon to the San Juans. Rain flecks the pilothouse windows, but we are snug inside with the hydronic heater blowing warm air at our feet and music playing softly on the pilothouse stereo.

I spent the previous three days provisioning the boat and checking off maintenance tasks. I’m always nervous before casting off on an extended cruise. Will we have mechanical troubles? Do I have all the spares and tools I’ll need to fix whatever might break in a remote anchorage? These worries fade away as we put a few miles astern as the soft edges of a floating world replace the hard lines of a linear land-based life.

The view of the helm on the eve of departure

We enjoy a favorable current for most of the way. In the three hours it takes to travel the length of Vashon Island, we don’t encounter a single pleasure craft. Other than ferry boats, tugboats, and cargo ships, we have the sea to ourselves.

Seattle skyline from the water. Always beautiful

Just north of Seattle, Lisa takes the helm, and I tour the engine room. We do these visits every two or three hours to check the bilges, fuel filters, and temperatures of the engine and equipment. Usually, these inspections are ho-hum. As I wedge myself alongside the rumbling Lugger engine, I glance perfunctorily at the hydraulic system’s oil reservoir that feeds our stabilizer system. My eyes widen. Whoa! What? The oil level has fallen to dangerously low levels. In every previous check over years of doing this, the hydraulic oil level remained stubbornly topped off. Uh oh. The stabilizers minimize side-to-side rolling from waves and wakes using large fins jutting out from both sides of the hull, about four feet below the water. I return to the helm to check the stabilizer status panel just as a low oil level alarm rings out at the console. We center and lock the stabilizer fins and power down the system. Our smooth and level ride turns into a belly-churning rock and roll tumult in a matter of seconds. We decide to divert to Shilshole Marina to sort things out.

Once safely moored at the guest dock, I search the boat for the source of the oil leak. The actuators that power the fins sit inside closets within the master stateroom and head — no sign of leaks or problems there. Inside the engine room, I discover gallons of hydraulic oil sitting in the bilge. I trace the oil upstream to a pressure gauge that has failed under one of the engine room floorboards. A post on the Nordhavn Owner’s Group Internet forum confirms this diagnosis. Other Nordhavns, some far offshore, have experienced this unsettling failure and had to limp a long distance without stabilization. Many have preemptively replaced these time-bomb gauges with test ports where a gauge can be temporarily plugged into the system to check the pressure.

The failed pressure gauge

I share the diagnosis with Lisa as she lounges in the cockpit, warmed by the sunshine on a beautiful March Seattle afternoon, taking in the bustle of Shilshole Marina.

“Well,” she smiles. “This is as good a place to be stuck as anywhere. And you’ll figure it out. You always do.”

Our first mate is not concerned

I toss and turn all that night, worrying about whether I can find the right parts here in Ballard without having to abort our trip. I search for nearby hydraulic outfits on my phone at 3 am when I can’t fall back to sleep.

I rise early. I am chatting with a friendly Uber driver from the Philippines at 7 am. Within an hour, I find the exact replacement gauge at Nebar Hose and Fittings in Ballard. Covich-Williams, right next door, sells me a 5-gallon bucket of hydraulic oil. I convince the Uber driver of a newer Prius to allow me to stow the bucket of oil in his trunk, and we’re on our way back to the marina. I wedge myself inside the engine room by 9 am, my first cup of coffee steaming on top of the engine’s coolant tank. Since the oil has already drained out of the system, it is a simple thing to replace the gauge. The more difficult job is removing the spilled oil from the bilge and cleaning it. I pump the oil into a waste bucket for safe disposal, but more oil soon oozes out from the upper bilge where the leak originated. After three flushes of the upper and lower bilges, I finally have a spotless, dry bilge — what a pain.

With some trepidation, I energize the stabilizer system with the engine running at the dock. No leaks. We complete a sea trial once we clear the breakwater. Again, all good. We are underway again by noon. All systems go.

Every great adventure should start with some mechanical failure and a flood of oil in the bilge; otherwise, we’d take all the elaborate systems aboard these trawlers for granted, right? And honestly, it feels good to solve a problem like this with my own two hands without having to cancel or postpone our trip.

Keep reading for Part Two of our Early Spring Cruise in the San Juan Islands: Heading North.

Winter Cruise through Central Puget Sound

With a welcome change in the weather, the crew of Indiscretion made immediate plans to cast off our dock lines. We unloaded a dock cart full of too much food, topped off the water tank, and set out for a much-needed winter cruise through central Puget Sound.

We decided on Dyes Inlet and the Port of Silverdale as our first destination, though we also considered favorites like Blake Island and Poulsbo. Dyes Inlet provides an ample secure anchorage, and the dock at the Silverdale Waterfront Park is rarely crowded. The nearby park is great for the dogs, and the town of Silverdale is walkable. We’ve visited here a couple of times before on Indiscretion and many times on our previous sailboats.

Docking in a squall

While we enjoyed calm seas on our trip north, a brisk south wind materialized as we made our way up Dyes Inlet. The marina is near the end of the inlet and lacks protection from southern winds and waves. As we neared, I could see quite a fetch had worked up and wind waves were cresting over the empty dock. I steered from the flybridge while Lisa waited in the cockpit to handle dock lines. With our Eartec headphones, we could talk over our options and discuss any last-minute change in plans.

“The wind’s holding steady at 25 knots, so I’m going to turn up into the wind and dock to starboard,” I said using my confident Captain voice.

“OK, I’ll tie the stern first and then the forward spring.” She sounded pretty confident too.

Docking in windy conditions is my least favorite thing about boating. From my perch on the flybridge, I felt the full force of the wind as we made our turn upwind. There’s a feeling of detachment up this high, like I’m a fascinated spectator and not the person driving the ship. Part of this stems from the distance. On the flybridge, I’m too far away to help with dock lines or position fenders. But I sure can see everything unfold before me. If you’ve ever watched those “Bonehead Boater” videos on YouTube, you’ll agree that this would be a marvelous spot to capture a boat docking debacle.

I approached the wave-splashed dock at a 45-degree angle, feathered the boat slowly through the wind and nosed the bow forward to keep the steerage needed to make one last turn. Despite the wind and heavy chop, control over the boat was steady and controlled. I wouldn’t have dreamed of attempting this in any of our sailboats.

Lisa’s running commentary through the headset provided comfort as we approached the dock: “twelve feet, ten feet, eight feet, FIVE feet.” This last came across with urgency. I took one long breath, then swung the wheel hard to port and gave the engine a heavy burst of reverse power. As I hoped, the prop walk from the propeller against Indiscretion’s massive rudder pushed the stern sideways, right up to the dock. Lisa scrambled to tie dock lines while I kept the boat in position with thrusters and the prop. Stronger gusts heeled us against the pier, and I had to really work the thrusters to keep the boat off long enough to drop extra fenders to cushion the hull.

Once we were safe and secure, I had a chance to philosophize as we served up our traditional celebration beers in the pilothouse. We could have taken the safe route and dropped anchor in Dyes Inlet to wait out the squall, but surely we needed practice in carrying out these kinds of docking maneuvers in all types of weather. Besides anticipating the worst (i.e., featured video on Bonehead Boaters), we carried out a drama-free, textbook docking aboard a very capable and forgiving trawler. Each experience brings us more competence and confidence. And, as always, that beer tasted delicious.

And yet, when I shared my recollection for this blog post with Lisa, I got a slightly different perspective on this particular docking experience.

“You weren’t the one on the dock with the waves splashing over it, and the fenders nearly popping as the boat pushed against the dock,” she told me.

“Well, what about the way I used prop walk to bring the stern over?” I asked, a little defensively.

“Yeah, well, we basically slammed against the dock. If that was what you were aiming for, it worked great.” She then reminded me how stressed I was in those minutes after arriving as I attempted to squeeze every fender we had between the undulating dock and my precious Indiscretion before the hull caved in.

“Well,” I laughed. “Maybe stress during docking is something you forget, like the pain of childbirth.”

“No, that’s a myth. You don’t forget that. That’s why we only have two children.”

Like I said, every challenging docking situation is a learning experience.

Port of Silverdale dock after the squall.

Port of Silverdale

We anchored out in Dyes Inlet during our previous visits to Silverdale, but chose the convenience of the dock this trip for taking the dogs ashore. The marina has a good number of slips, and each time we visited, we noted available space along the outside dock and fingers. An area for dinghies lines the northern end of the dock near the ramp for easy access to shore for anchored boats.

Moorage rates are reasonable — $10 per night for boats under 28 feet, $20 for larger vessels. Shore power costs just $5 per night, though it is turned off for the winter season. The maximum stay is three consecutive nights. During our two-night stay, we were the only boat on the dock. Moreover, pedestrians are prohibited from walking the docks while the county completes a construction project near the landing. We truly had the place all to ourselves.

The park at the head of the dock is perfect for boaters with dogs. Plenty of grass to sniff and trash cans to dispose of dog waste along a nice waterfront walkway. We made our way through what seemed like dozens of hair salons (why so many in Silverdale??) and busy construction sites to find a nice trail system along the northern edge of Dyes Inlet. After about four miles of walking, we ran out of steam and still didn’t find an end to the trails. Our two dogs slept pretty well the rest of the day after that trek.

Port of Silverdale dock. We had the entire marina to ourselves.

Illahee State Park

We departed Silverdale for Illahee State Park just north of Bremerton off Rich Passage. We visited here many years ago on our sailboat but chose not to stay because of the wake from the ferries and the dilapidated condition of the main dock. Big improvements have been made since then. The old dock now serves as a floating breakwater for protection from the exposed northern waters. A new dock offers some 300 feet of side-tie moorage. We experienced some ferry wake, but the motion hardly moved our 60,000 pound trawler. We spent a relaxing day and night enjoying hikes through the park and marveling at the view astern from our sunny and sheltered cockpit, though we probably would only stay the night here in settled weather.

Illahee State Park dock with Mount Rainier in the background.

Homeward Bound

This streak of fine March weather has us poring over charts and reviewing marine forecasts for crossing the Strait of Juan de Fuca. A cruise through the beautiful San Juan Islands sounds awfully nice right now. However, family responsibilities require we point the bow south after too-short a cruise. Call it a pit stop before we head north again.

Homeward bound. The pilothouse settee must be the most comfortable seat on the boat!

Indiscretion Hires a Full-time Captain

I could see the problem from the very start. This complicated trawler yacht with all her engines and systems required more attention than I could possibly dedicate on nights and weekends. She needed a full-time captain and engineer to keep her Bristol and ready at a moment’s notice to cast off and make for remote destinations.

So, I ran the numbers. A Captain with the skills and resourcefulness to manage a yacht like Indiscretion wouldn’t come cheap. The minimum salary for a professional Captain runs $150,000 a year, plus travel and meals. It turns out I’d also need an engineer for another $90,000 to $100,000 because the complex mechanical systems are beyond the skills of a mere crewman. On a larger yacht, the costs would even be higher.

Then, there’s travel. First-class flights to French Polynesia to meet your boat don’t grow on trees. And to be honest, Indiscretion is a bit small to host a crew while we tool around these remote destinations. I’d probably end up upgrading to a larger vessel to accommodate decent crew quarters. Now we’re talking big bucks. Maybe millions.

When I added the extra costs to my current boat budget, I grew concerned. Boats aren’t precisely the best place to invest your money in the first place, but adding a crew to the annual tally sure didn’t help matters. I dreaded the conversation I would need to have with my better half as I explained this financial decision. She once took away my eBay privileges for an entire year for buying too many rare first edition books. I can’t imagine what she might say about this.

Even with a professional crew, things don’t always work out well. I’m a fan of Kenny Chesney’s No Shoes Radio station on SiriusXM. Kenny keeps his boat down in the Caribbean and routinely complains about being stuck at the dock because Boat Captain Ben couldn’t get the generator running, or some such issue. If that stuff happens to Kenny Chesney, it could happen to me too. That would be super irritating.

And then it hit me. My Eureka moment. What if I took the job as Captain? I’d have to quit my day job, but after running the numbers six different ways, it would be cheaper and better for me to do it than pay someone else.

So, that’s what I’ve done. After more than thirty years of various finance and strategy roles, I have officially retired from traditional corporate life to become Indiscretion’s full-time Captain. I can’t believe how much money I’m saving! I sure hope I can keep that generator running.

Boat Captain Bob

Want to Keep a Journal? Go Digital

I’ve kept a personal journal for most of my adult life. These journals have helped me wrestle with every significant decision and manage through the many stresses of everyday life. Last month, I put down my millionth word in over 40 years of self-reflection.

I’ve written about the reasons to keep a journal, and by far the most frequent question I receive from readers is how to establish a regular habit of journaling. Many find it easy to start a journal but much more challenging to keep it up.

For years, I purchased attractive leather-bound journals to collect my thoughts, but some of these books took years to fill with my slanted, left-handed scrawl. There were a couple tumultuous years in my twenties when all I could muster was a single angst-ridden entry. It wasn’t until I moved to a remote island where I was forced to take a solitary ferry ride to work each morning and night before my journaling habit took hold. Watching a storm-tossed sea out the cabin windows of a ferry boat put me often in the mood to write.

Now, I realize that taking a ferry boat to establish a journaling habit isn’t practical for many people. However, I did learn something else about my journal keeping that might be more useful.

Eight years ago, I tried the Day One app to see if a digital approach might replace my cherished leather-bound books. Day One was one of the first journaling apps to come out for both the Mac and iPhone/iPad. My first entry wasn’t particularly optimistic about this new technology:

I think writing here in this way will have me more focused on the device than the words. Hard to imagine myself getting into the writing zone like this, always worrying about hitting the right keys ... Still, it is convenient, tapping away as I am now from my easy chair, writing this entry on my iPad instead of surfing web sites.

Journal entry: December 12, 2012

Despite my initial uncertainty, I adapted quickly to a digital process. Since 2013, Day One has been my sole journal writing tool, and I would never go back to hand writing my journals. A few years ago, I transcribed my old paper journals into Day One for digital safekeeping and to revisit my youthful writing. With all my journals reduced to ones and zeros, I recently measured my productivity before and after switching from paper. Here’s a chart of my journal entries over a long span of writing (eight years on paper, eight years using Day One):

In my final year of paper-based journaling, I wrote 33 entries. That’s a little under once a week. My journal output shot up five-fold in my first year of using Day One. Comparing eight-year time spans on both systems, I wrote four times more entries in Day One than on paper. Over the past couple of years, I’ve written just about every day in Day One. On top of this, I share more each time I write in Day One. My typical paper entry ran 300 words. In Day One, that has increased by 20 percent, now 365 words.

After all those years of writing on paper, how did Day One make me a more prolific journal writer?

I think the most significant breakthrough for me was ubiquitous access on mobile devices. I usually kept my paper journal in the glovebox of my truck, where I wrote during ferry crossings across Puget Sound. As a result, I seldom wrote at home, or at work, or on weekends. With Day One available on the Mac, iPhone and iPad, I could capture thoughts in many more places and times. I grew especially fond of writing on the iPad with its compact size, always-connected cellular radio, and comfortable keyboard. Last year, nearly 100% of my entries were written on the iPad.

Unlike a paper journal, Day One allows practically every form of digital communication to become part of a journal entry. Emails to friends and family, Facebook posts, and blog posts are just a copy and paste away from my journal. And of course, I can add photos. I have over 500 photos, videos and sound clips in my journal that bring a whole new level of intimacy that simply wasn’t possible in my old paper journals.

After I transcribed my old journals into Day One, I realized I had the ultimate personal knowledge system. Almost everything important that happened to me in the past 40 years is accessible with a quick search. What did my doctor tell me at that visit back in 2005? I can easily retrieve it. What were my daughter’s first words? I wrote about it (today, I would have recorded it!). I apply tags to my entries, which makes it incredibly powerful to review my personal musings on themes like fatherhood, marriage, spirituality, travel, etc. All of these thoughts were buried and locked away in my paper journals but are blissfully free in Day One. It’s become an incredible resource of information and insight about myself, which in turn has become a positive reinforcement loop to keep recording my thoughts.

Some other reasons that drew me a digital tool like Day One:

If you keep buying attractive blank journals, but struggle to fill them, you should give a digital option like Day One a try. Set a daily reminder and take the few minutes you might otherwise spend on social media to write to yourself. Write about the big things in your life, but also the small, precious things. Or answer the day’s writing prompt. You might be surprised at what you share. And trust me: your future self will thank you.

The New Craft App Does More Than Keep Notes

About a month ago, I started using a new Mac/iOS app called Craft to help me make sense of books I read and organize ideas and content for my own writing. I was intrigued by the potential of bringing all my disparate notes into one friction-free digital home, enabling new connections and insights from all these books and ideas. The inspiration for this came from reading Sönke Ahrens’ book How to Take Smart Notes, which introduced me to Professor Luhmann’s famed Zettelkasten system.

Before discovering Craft, I used an assortment of tools that never really meshed with how I liked to work. I did my writing in Ulysses. I housed some frequently accessed PDFs in Apple Notes. I kept stacks of orphaned index cards with book notes and insights in a card box. I stored book notes and research references in DevonThink, along with lists of books I’ve read and others I wanted to read. While I enjoyed the retrieval power of DevonThink, its obtuse editing function frustrated me (why must I click into a different mode to edit a note?). Its inefficient sync process frequently had me exasperated, waiting for my notes to appear on whatever device I was using. There’s nothing that kills creativity faster than having to fiddle with technology before you can capture your thoughts. Or forgetting where you stored that quote you need for an essay you’re writing.

I was stumbling along unhappily with this setup when I heard about a new note-taking app that MacStories named their app of the year. That’s high praise for software released in November. So, what is Craft?

Craft shares note-taking functionality with apps like Evernote, Bear, Notion, or even Apple’s built-in Notes program. It works equally well on Mac, iPad and iPhone (no Android or Windows support at present). Its unique page and page-block system can include rich text, Markdown text, images, scans, Apple Pencil jottings, PDFs, and external links beautifully rendered on the same nicely formatted page. “Cards” of information and additional full pages can be inserted within a single page. With links and back-links between documents and even specific paragraphs on a page, It checks all the boxes for a proper Zettelkasten tool. Syncing is fast, sharing with others is simple and elegant, export options are robust, and real-time Google-like collaboration is built in. Ryan Christoffel’s in-depth review of Craft does a great job of showcasing the full functionality of the app.

The most important things to me were the ability to combine Markdown text and any kind of media on the same page, Zettelkasten-style links and back-links, and a native iPad app experience where I do most of my writing. I decided to give Craft a try over the holidays.

It took an evening to copy over decades worth of book notes and commonplace quotes from their various cubbyholes to Craft. I spent some extra time to drag book cover pictures my reviews and utilize the page styles that make this program so attractive.

Works great on Mac, iPhone and iPad

 

I began taking notes in Craft on the books I was reading. Gone were the editing frustrations and sync problems I’d faced with DevonThink. I found myself in the app a lot on whatever device I had near me — adding links to other books I’d already read with similar themes, more thinking, less fiddling. I felt drawn to the app, almost like the pull of social media apps like Facebook or Instagram, yet here, the content was my own creation.

It took another week to realize Craft is a writing tool that capably handles note storage and retrieval. To think of this as a mere note-taking app is missing the real power of the software.

The user interface is simply beautiful. Text and images are centered in the page with wide margins and plenty of white space. It reminds me of the Things task management app, which is high praise.

The beauty here is more than skin deep.

Hidden functionality awaits that is intuitive and powerful. Rearrange entire paragraphs or reorder lists by simply dragging with your finger. Pull a quote into an essay from your book review (also in Craft) using split-screen. Drag in a picture from a website or your photo album, and it appears just like you would expect. Performance is fast and stable.

Keyboard commands exist for practically everything. Markdown commands that my fingertips have long memorized transform into properly formatted text on the screen, so I don’t need to translate mentally. Links and style formatting are simple to apply, letting my mind stay focused on the content. The best way I can describe it is this: when I’m writing, I get exactly what I want without thinking about the technology. No friction. It just works. This is amazing for such a young app.

I came to Craft thinking it might replace DevonThink as my notes archive. Craft won that battle easily, at least for my needs. What I didn’t expect was a more fundamental shift in my workflow: that Craft might become my primary writing tool, replacing Ulysses.

With Craft, I seem to write better and with more focus. I’m not writing novels or a dissertation, so I don’t need most of the powerful features that come with a professional writing tool. Even so, immersed in my own curated knowledge sphere within Craft’s elegant writing interface, my elusive muse shows up and stays present much more often.

Could a beautiful, friction-free interface inspire better writing?

I have a few months before my Ulysses subscription renews. I’ll give this some time, but I do feel that Craft’s seamless, integrated writing experience could quite easily replace Ulysses as my primary writing tool. I don’t think early reviewers of Craft fully grasp the potential of this platform for writers. The tag line on Craft’s website provides a clue of their vision: “Craft brings back the joy to writing.

My wish list for the app is surprisingly short. It needs end-to-end data encryption and better overall security. Capturing text from articles on the web with the iOS Share Sheet needs work. You can’t search inside PDFs like you can with DevonThink. Multiple windows on the Mac are a little hard to figure out. I wish TextExpander worked on iPad. But, honestly, these are minor complaints in what has quickly become an indispensable piece of software.

One thing I won’t bicker about is the subscription price. At $45 per year, it’s expensive when compared to note-taking options like Bear. But an app that handles note-taking and writing and Zettelkasten-style linking … for me, the value I’m getting matches the price. Rumor has it that a one-time purchase option may soon be available, hosted on your cloud platform of choice (iCloud, Dropbox, etc.) and without real-time collaboration, that may take away the sting of the high subscription price.

Most of all, I want to support the team that created this excellent new app to see what more they can bring to this emerging thinking and writing tool.

Give Craft a try. You might be very pleasantly surprised at what you find.

For the most recent update, see  The Craft App —A Year of Magical Linking.